ーthe second talk
of course, it was heather
with whom i wanted to have
the second talk
and so i did
we were at his place
i muttered a sorry again
almost the same
way i did to jungkook
he too felt it was in vain
and that he'd forgiven me
a long time back
i was brimming with
happiness within
seeing how supportive
my friends were
not that i didn't know it already
but a weight seemed
to have been lifted off my shoulders
now that i gave them
a proper apology
it's all good now,
all back to normal
but i still had
a question in mind
he said and i
anticipated
i have noticed how
you're very apologetic
do you by any chance
find it difficult to accept it
that you're appreciated
and accepted by us all?
he questioned
i wondered
i guess the answer
to the question is yes
i often notice how i fail
to make you guys happy
just the way you all make me
it's also my responsibility
to keep you happy
i am trying to improve at it
but it's never been easy
i confessed
he gave me a warm smile
and held my smaller hand
in his warmer, larger one
oh jimin, you don't understand
the only person
you're supposed to make
happy is yourself
we try to make you laugh
but you only get elated
if you allow yourself to
because for all i know
that if you don't
you could be crying
in a comedian's cave
he explained me
just so well
that my head
felt like spinning
has it always been like this?
has this always been the logic?
is the real reason
why i am happy today
is because i am merely
allowing myself to?
i have known i have always
been the problem
but i have just
reached the conclusion
that my prolonged sadness
was just my inability
to accept happiness
i feel weird
is this my baptism?
is this how is it?
has is always been like this?
i asked him
and he smiled again
has always been and
will always remain
just keep allowing yourself to be happy
and i promise you
we're going nowhere
and neither are you
we'd keep making you happy
if you'd allow yourself to
and you make us happy anyhow
just accept this fact too
his words were sincere
and reached the deepest
portions of my heart
i wish
i had heard these words sooner
i wish i had known this
from the start.
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