^^ LUKE HOLY SHIT AHSVAVJSD THIS PICTURE UGH FUCK ME/FUCK ASHTON YOU HOT PIECE OF SHIT
I suck at updating fml how do people update so fast and I'm just like?? (I just realized I say "I suck at updating" in practically every authors note oh god I'm crying)
UM the new fall out boy music video (irresistible) IS SO GREAT I LAUGHED SO HARD but I read a comment that made me think of the video as a message to us because it said how while fob never made a basket everyone cheered anyway while the other team (representing popular artists) kept scoring but once Pete made it in (meaning fob became popular) everyone left and even this one girl said "the music stopped" as in people not liking their new music and damn :///
Oh and can I just say that the whole daddy kink thing (ESPECIALLY WITH ASHTON) makes me really uncomfortable like why would u even?;!/! AND ASHTON I LOVE U BUT PLS CUT UR HAIR AND SHAVE U LOOK LIKE A HOBO (sorry but it's true) I MISS 2013 TMH TOUR ASHTON WOW I still love him now but I just idk
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"When I close my eyes
All the stars align
And you are by my side
You are by my side
Once in a lifetime
It's just right
We are always safe."
~ Once in a Lifetime by One Direction
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Ashton's POV
Assumably waking up from the sun filtering through the windows, I looked around in sleepy confusion at the car seats and familiar interior; yet, I still couldn't process where I was.
I furrowed my eyebrows, feeling warm arms around my waist. I turned onto my other side, only to bump noses with a sleeping Luke.
Who was completely naked, save the boxers loosely on his hips (I luckily put all of my clothes back on.) And it was all I needed to suddenly remember what happened last night.
Oh god.
My cheeks began to burn as I studied Luke's sleeping face; his slight stubble, his lip ring, his lips-
Oh god.
A look of embarrassment crossed over my face as I laid there in thought. Never in my wildest dreams would I ever think someone like Luke would love me enough to...do that.
That last thought made me make a weird noise out of disbelief and hide my face in my hands, not thinking clearly when I moved too much to the side and rolled off the back car seats with a thump, landing on Luke's strewn out clothes. It really shouldn't have hurt as much as it did, but I knew exactly why it hurt so bad in a particular place and I just wanted to curse out Luke at the moment.
I found myself covering my face again and letting out a groan, "Ugh,"
After a few moments of laying my face in my hands, I looked up and immediately began to blush again when I saw Luke's eyes on me, a small, sleepy smirk on his face.
"How much of that were you awake for?" I squeaked, cheeks as red as a tomato as I tugged at my sleeves. Luke propped himself up on his elbow and bit his lip before admitting,
"Would it be weird if I said I was actually awake the whole time?" My face grew warm as I couldn't help but laugh.
"Yes, yes it would." I managed to say, biting my lip to stop a ridiculous grin fighting its way onto my face.
Luke sat up, not even fazed that he was practically naked, and stretched (his back cracked, making me cringe) tiredly. I couldn't avert my eyes away from him, which seemed creepy, but how could I not look at Luke's glorious back muscles?
Wow, that even sounded weird in my head.
"Why are you still down there?" Luke finally said, a pout forming on his face as he opened his arms up for me. "C'mere."
Ignoring the pain in my lower half (A/N: I'm talking about his booty ok I just felt awkward so I didn't say it directly ehe), I crawled into Luke's embrace, feeling his arms wrap around me.
"So," Luke began, his breath hitting the back of my head and making me shiver. "About last night-"
My blood immediately ran cold as I quickly intervened, "Oh god I was bad, wasn't I? I'm s-" he tightened his arms around me, hushing my rambling as he pressed a kiss to my neck.
"You didn't let me finish, Ash." I relaxed. Luke continued, "I was just going to say that--uh, I had a great time yesterday with you and I know it's probably too early to say this but I really do mean it when I say I'd want to spend the rest of my life with you." My heart beat quickened, but in a good way.
I always expected the worse, yet here Luke was, telling me the best thing I've heard in forever. I craned my neck to face him, which lead to our noses brushing slightly. Luke was giving me that same smile he seemed to only use for me, eyes bright. We were just looking at each other; there was nothing to be said.
"I-" I tried to say, but it came out barely above a whisper. Our bodies seemed to have subconsciously moved closer, so now our lips were barely an inch apart. Luke's smile warmed my heart as he purposely bumped his nose against mine playfully, making a giggle slip past my lips. He chuckled quietly, biting his lip as he stared down at my lips, making it obvious.
So I leaned over more, just enough for our lips to mold together, there being a familiar spark. It was a toe-curling kiss that made my mind go crazy. It was short but passionate, sometimes meaning more than the longer kisses.
"I-I would like to spend the rest of my life with you, too, by the way." And Luke's smile in response could've lit up the whole world; the sun didn't stand a chance.
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When lunchtime rolled by Luke and I finally returned home, and we decided we should probably return to work for the rest of the day.
Our lack of working lately made me anxious, but Luke told me that I shouldn't worry. Why shouldn't I? Unless he had some other way to pay the bills, I was entitled to worrying.
"Hey, Ash?" I turned and smiled at Luke, pulling on my coat and getting ready to head to the library.
"Hm?" I tilted my head curiously as Luke looked like he was holding in a laugh.
"Babe, maybe you shouldn't go to work today." I frowned,
"Why not?" Luke bit his lip, but I could tell he was smiling.
"You're, erm, limping." Blood rushed to my cheeks as I covered my face in embarrassment.
"I thought I was covering it up really well!" I blushed, making Luke smirk. "It's your fault!" I blamed, taking my face out of my hands and jabbing him in the chest with my index finger.
"It's not my fault you told me to go har-" I glared at him before he could finish,
"Don't you dare finish that sentence!" I warned, making Luke laugh.
"Sorry, babe." He 'apologized', leaning down and kissing my forehead. "If you still want to go, then that's fine. But don't get all surprised if someone asks you why you're limping so badly." I tried not to say some sarcastic response, nodding and staring sheepishly down at the floor. I guess I shouldn't go, then.
Luke gently gripped my chin, making me look at him. His expression was soft as he leaned down, pressing his lips against mine. When we pulled away, Luke kept a hand on my cheek, suddenly looking worried.
"You'll be okay if I go, right?" I furrowed my eyebrows,
"Of course I will. Why wouldn't I be?" And I knew exactly why Luke would worry, but I was purposely playing dumb. I didn't need him on my case all the time, as if I was a child who needed supervision. I knew he did it out of love, but sometimes I felt like he thought I couldn't do things for myself.
Obviously not having the energy to argue with my response, Luke just smiled and squeezed in another kiss and a mumbled 'I love you' before leaving me for work.
The apartment suddenly was very quiet, making me anxious. Not allowing myself to think too deeply, I quickly turned on the TV for a distraction.
I needed to prove to myself that I didn't need to depend on Luke to stop me from hurting myself. I needed to want to stop for myself, I realized. It was the only way I'd ever get better, and I knew that's what Luke wanted.
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Luke's POV
When I walked into Calum's store, he looked genuinely surprised.
"I didn't think you'd be here today," he shrugged after I shot him a confused glance. For some reason, as I took in the surroundings of the place, I couldn't help but have flashbacks to when Ashton ran in here that one night, soaking wet from the rain and covered in bruises.
Not a settling thought, as I was already worried about the boy, so I decided to push it away.
"I brought your car back," I gestured to the road outside of the door, where it was parked to the side. "Thanks for letting me borrow it, by the way." Calum smiled kindly, waving it off.
"It's no problem," he shifted his weight, leaning against the counter. He started to smirk, making me mentally prepare for embarrassment. "how was your date with Ashton?" Calum's eyebrows raised as I sputtered out an answer,
"It was great." I willed myself not to blush, giving such an awkwardly short answer that I knew Calum would be suspicious.
"Oh, that's great." He mocked, making me roll my eyes. "Are you not gonna give me any details like a normal person, or?"
I couldn't tell Calum we had sex. How fucking weird would that be?
"Well, I took him away from the city to show him the sunset and, erm, the stars and he really liked that." Calum nodded along, the annoying expression on his face never going away.
"That's nice." I couldn't help but blush a little, making Calum snort. "Why are you so embarrassed? Was it something I said?" I groaned, shaking my head and resisting the urge to bang my head against the wall.
"No, it's nothing," We both stayed quiet for a while, allowing me to take the time to internally curse at myself for being so indiscreet.
"You did more than just look at stars with him, didn't you?" Calum said with a suggestive smirk. I didn't even have the energy to lie.
"...yeah," I winced as he began to laugh, saying 'I knew it!' obnoxiously. "Yeah, yeah, whatever. Just don't--don't tell Michael, okay? I don't feel like getting my balls cut off."
That only made Calum laugh harder, his eyes crinkling as he covered his mouth.
I grabbed him by the shoulders, my serious expression making him calm down a bit. "I mean it, Cal." He put his hands up in mock surrender.
"Okay, okay! I won't tell him, but he'll have to find out sometime."
The day Michael finds out will be the day I die. I thought with a shudder.
It was weird that I had such a rivalry with my boyfriend's best friend, and if Ashton and I were going to be together as long as we talked about, then I was hoping Michael and I would start to become less hateful towards each other along the way.
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What is this chapter bye
Ok lately all I've been doing is crying because my parents gave my dog away today to someone my dad knows from work and I miss him so much and they did it because apparently I didn't take him out enough and I feel like shit because he's such a great dog and I love him he's sometimes the only reason why I'm happy and I'm so sad I feel so empty and stupid and guilty and I've had my dog for 6 fucking years and that's a long time so idk if I'll ever get over it and I just want him back I fucking hate this like even my friends were stunned my parents did it yet at the same time I'm so selfish because we gave him away so he'd be with a more active family and so he'll be happy and my brother even said getting him was a mistake and that we should learn a lesson from this and I wanted to burst into tears because I don't want my dog to be known as a mistake and shit I'm literally in tears as I'm writing this I'm so pathetic I'm sorry if u read all that bye ~Hannah