august 2014
kenzie louise
"this is all your fault!" my mother shouted at my bedroom door
i shook my head as tears fell from my cheek
"she died because of you! you didn't help" she screamed
at this point i was starting to believe her.
"i'm sorry!" i shouted
she shook her head "it should've been you"
i let out a sob before slamming my door
i ran to my phone too see a text message from stormie?
"i'm very sorry to have you tell you this over the phone. it couldn't wait. today at 11pm, ross sadly passed from a car crash, we just want you to remember that he loves you, he may not have said it, but he sure does love you, we can see it. he was a hard working kid and didn't deserve this. he wasn't done with his life yet. he didn't get to grow up with the girl of his dreams. but he may rest peacefully now."
i threw my phone into the wall leaving it surprisingly in one piece
"it's not true!" i sobbed
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"kenzie!"
"wake up!"
i shot up from my dream to see ross sat up next to me
i shook my head and wiped my tears from my face before resting my head in my hands
"i'm so sorry" i cried
i felt his arms wrap around my shoulders "nothing to be sorry about, i'm here"
i let it all out, in shock still i looked up at him with guilt written all over my face
"want to tell me what happened?" he furrowed his eyebrows
i kodded slowly; unsure of what to say or do
he nodded as i started speaking
"it's was the same dream, my mum...she b-blamed me"
"aw baby, no no no, you didn't do anything, you did as much as you could to save her, okay?" he cooed
i nodded slightly as he held me tighter
"what's the time?" i sniffled
he tapped his phone on the bedside table and replied
"3:47"
"i'm sorry, go to sleep" i said getting out of his grip
"baby, stop, i'm here for you" he said wrapping his arms around me
i tried to stay stubborn but i immediately fell into his arms, he layed back down leaving me on his side
"i tried so hard" i whispered breaking the silence
"i know my love" he rubbed my back gently
i sighed as ross lifted my thigh up to his chest, i hugged him tightly
"what am i going to do without you?" i asked
"i have no clue" he laughed lightly trying to brighten the mood
i smiled lightly
"but for real? i know your strong" i felt his eyes on me
i looked up and smiled at him softly
he kissed my forehead befor laying back down
"goodnight beautiful" he whispered
"goodnight bubba"
"bubba hey?" he smiled
"yes bubba, unless you want me to go back to superhero?" i laughed
"i love them all, every single one"
i laughed before he kissed my head one last time as i drifted back off to sleep
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i woke up to ross' legs tangled in mine, he was laying on top of me with his hands on my stomach
"goodmorning bubba" he said proudly
"hey, that's my word" i frowned
"sorry sorry, good morning beautiful" he smiled
i looked down at him with a smile on both of our faces, i kissed his forehead as we layed there for a few minutes
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"are you ready?" ross shouted from the bottom of the stairs
i brushed my hair one last time, i checked my outfit and i looked great
i was wearing some black leggings and a flannel shirt with a white crop top underneath with some white high top converse
"coming" i yelled as i ran down the stairs
ross smiled at me as he placed his hand in mine and walked to the car
we were going to get ice cream, another of our favourite things to do
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"strawberry or vanilla?" ross asked me once we got there
"hmm, vanilla please" i smiled up at him
"okay, one vanilla cone and one chocolate chip cookie dough" he asked the man
"coming right up" he replied
i smiled up at ross again as he kissed my forehead
he grabbed our ice cream as we headed to the beach, one of favourite places.
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today was august 4th, the past few days me and my family spent most our time with the lynchs, my mum and stormie had grown very close and actually ended up buying a frenchie, her name was velour and she was gorgeous
megan stayed a couple nights with us due to her and rocky not being able to see eachother on tour
it was around 4pm and the sun was setting due to it get colder again, we were all sat in the back garden of the lynch house playing cards
we had a day of chilling and organising seeing as they are leaving around 11 tomorrow for their first stop
they were performing in la first then heading to california, it was a long tour but only in the US so they weren't going out of the country
"beat that!" i say as i slam the cards down
"you only won because you cheated!" rocky shouted
i rolled my eyes as he pouted
"i'll make you mac n cheese?" i laughed
he shot up immediately as a smile grew on his face, he nodded eagerly
i laughed and nodded in agreement "i'll make some for tomorrow"
my smile faded at the thought of it
ross rubbed his hand on my leg and i looked up at him, he gave me an 'are you okay?" kind of look
i just nodded and looked back down at my seat
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"anyone want a drink?" riker said getting up
it was dark now, stormie and mark were cuddling up on the sofa outside still, i forgot to mention my parents were here, after a few days ago we spoke it out
we still hadn't decided on what to do about the recording company, i think we were waiting to see if i got into a college here, if not i would apply to one in new york
far far away from here.
we were talking about our past, how we met, how far we've come
"i remeber when i first met you" ross smiled down at me
i was laying on his chest as he was sat upwards, he had his arm around my shoulder and my legs were on rocky next to me
"me too" i looked up
"you two!!" stormie squealed
i look over at her at the same time as ross to see her with her phone, taking a picture of us both
we both started pulling funny faces as stormies smile grew bigger and bigger
"cutest!" she said putting her phone down
i smiled up at ross as he kissed my forehead
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"what'd you say we go cuddle? our last night togther" ross frowned at me
it was getting very late now, around 12am and they had to be ready for the morning
"yeah" i smiled weakly
he stood up and extended us hand for me to grab it
i did so and stood up with ross as he told everyone goodnight, i said my goodbyes to my parents and made my way inside with ross behind me
i put some dirty dishes into the dishwasher just to help out and fed velour before putting her in her cage
"i love you helping out but you really don't have too" mark said
"oh hey" i smiled
he laughed and rolled his eyes as ross wrapped his arms around my waist
"let's go to bed" he said
i nodded and got out of ross' grip and went upstairs hand in hand
i went into the bathroom and washed my face and threw my hair up before changing into some bottoms and ross' shirt that hung perfectly on my thighs
i brushed my teeth before walking out to find ross just going in
he smirked at me as i walked over to his bed, i laughed a little and layed down under the clean covers
"i'm gonna miss your bed" i said
"and i'm going to miss you" he replied sticking his head out form the bathroom with his toothbrush in his mouth
"don't make me sad" i moaned
he didn't reply, i heard some bashing around and soon enough the light went out, i felt the bed dip and someone wrap themselves with me
"hey" ross whispered
"hey bubba" i smiled
he started peppering kisses on my cheek and down to my jawline
i places my hands in his hair and tugged at it lightly as he moved them down to my chest and sucked at it lightly
"ross shor lynch, did you just give me a hickey" i laughed when he moved the kisses back to my jawline
"maybe, i did, but just for every other guy that tries to get with you, they will know, your not available, because your mine" he said with his face inches away from mine
"kiss me now" i mumbled
before i knew it he crashed his lips onto mine, he moved so he was hovering me and i wrapped one of my legs around his waist
the kiss deepened a few seconds in and ross poke my lip for entry and i allowed
before i knew it me and ross were both in our underwear and i became very self conscious
i looked down at ross kissing my belly and stopped everything
ross soon realised and stopped kissing me, he looked up at me and moved a piece of hair from my face
"everything okay?" he said out of breath
i nodded and decided to stay quiet
"your safe, we are safe, i have you" he smiled
i didn't wait a second more before crashing my lips into his
a few minutes later and we were both bare naked
"are you sure?" ross whispered
i nodded eagerly.
"i'm sure"
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a/n
sorry this is kinda shorter
sorta a fill chapter
anywayyy, THE DRIVER ERA ARE PERFORMING ON WEDNESDAY 31ST OF MARCH 2:30PM PST AND 10:30PM UK TIME