Masha
"...Mother, why are you here..." Lo ask nervously, as he stand up in front of me. Completely shielding my body away from them.
And with trembling hands I shove my shirt back, straightening it while I compose myself.
But my face remains feverish, when I remember how Lo looked at me. As if he cares for me. And that won't be right because he didn't know me well and I'm not a part of his family.
Looking on his back as he talk back to his mother, I feel this weird feeling, assuring me that I'm safe with him and he won't let me get hurt. And its the same as before when he saw my body, as he suddenly hug me.
"Tsk, I heard you yell at Chris. I know that you can't fight yourself but please son, just a little bit of control okay.." His mother sigh, I slowly peek at them while I hold Lo's shirt.
His mother smile at me when she saw me but Kia just scoff at my way. Obviously she would do that.
I know that Kia didn't like me, especially after I won over her challenge yesterday. I might not look like it but I'm pretty good in memorizing things. Ater I read or saw something once I would never be able to forget it.
While Jess and Darrel are more nice towards me, but still they never stop teasing me. Like now, as they both look at me with mischievous smirk.
Those three are actually triplets, and they were adopted by Lo's mother when their parents died after a tragic accident.
Ms. Leny didn't say what kind of accident was it but I am sure that it is something hard for all of them.
Because after living with them for a week I can see how they treated with love and care the other members of their so called 'pack'.
A word that I have hard time understanding. I am not sure if its because I'm from a different country or race but they are obviously weird and strange.
There are some secrets within their family, and even though they might think that I'm oblivious to it all. I still feel that they're hiding something from me.
Although its nothing to do with me, it still brought some unpleasant feelings inside my chest. Like I'm not a part of them, that I didn't belong.
"Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! Lo, you just like to have sex with him!! Just tell us the truth!" Jess snickers, and I gasp out loud. I suddenly move away from Lo, my cheeks felt so hot, I'm sure they were completely red. While my heart begins to beat profusely inside my chest.
"...don't be stupid Jess.., I can never do that to a boy and especially to a child..." He snap back.
A jolt of pain shoot through me, I flinched too hard I almost fall on the ground.
I don't know why but my heart and stomach feels heavy as my head starts throbbing painfully.
Gripping my chest with my hand, I willed the pain to go away.
After a while Lo, turn at me. I wipe any emotions on my face, as look back at him blankly.
"Do you want to go back?" He ask.
I just gave him a nod, my lips can't move, like its been tightly zip by some unknown force.
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I let myself submerge under the cold shower. Feeling the cold washed my worries away. Letting the sadness and loneliness that creeping inside my chest to completely be gone.
A day passed already after that incident but the pain is still there. And it doesn't help that Lo started avoiding me.
Maybe because he is grossed out by my body...
I let out a bitter smile when I look at the ugly scars scattered around my skin. Marring my flesh. Making me hideous and ugly.
Maybe, that's really the case.
Ouch...
A sudden pain shoot throughout inside of my chest. As if there is a knife in there stabbing my poor little heart mercilessly.
I don't know why I become like this. Why Lo's actions affected me tremendously? We're not family. I'm nothing to him. Just a new acquaintance. A lost boy he took pity, and adopted in a whim.
There's nothing connecting us.
So why I'm still affected till now?
As if I wanted to become someone special to him.
As if I wanted him to like me too, like how I like hi-
I gasp out loud and widen my eyes. Is that what I'm contemplating all this time? Because I like him? That I'm falling for him? But its not right, nor its acceptable. In his eyes I'm still a child.
Gosh what I'm even thinking, even if we're in the same age, its still impossible. He's way out of my league. A total handsome man, a perfect gentleman that any woman would wish to have. A successful businessman. A billionaire.
And me, I'm no one. I'm nothing.
Shaking my thoughts away, I slowly wash my body.
Letting my mind forget everything...
After all its not possible. I might be mistaking my own feelings, because I never treated the same way as he treats me.
Yes, it might be the case... After all I'm still a child. I don't know anything, especially about love..
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School..
A scary word, that makes my body tremble with so much force. Sending goosebumps all over me, making me weak on my knees.
"Hey, we don't have time to stand here and look around like an idiot. I'm not like you!" Kia huffed angrily as she shove me away, while she passed by me.
I almost fall but Jess hold me tightly while he help me steady on my feet. "Don't mind her, she's really a bitch sometimes, come on you still need to go to the admin to get your schedule.''
"Okay.."
We walk quietly, while the two boys remain silent beside me.
"Is there something happened between you and Lo?" Darrel suddenly ask.
I snap my head at him, when I heard his voice full of worry. A tone that I never thought he's capable of using.
"I'm not sure....but I think he's avoiding me..." I suddenly blurted out but when I realized what I've said I abruptly move me hand over my mouth.
Jess sigh while Darrel snicker. "Geez, that bastard! Just forget that old man and let's find you a more suitable guy! That moron is such a coward like always.." Jess exclaim with annoyed face.
"As always.. Jess. But don't worry little guy that old bastard will be back to normal just gave him time.."
I look at them confusedly but still I nod my head, even though I'm pretty clueless to what they really meant by their words.
"Geez, the bell will ring every moment now... Hurry up!!"
"But Jess we know that Lo already enrolled Masha matching our schedules so what's the harm in walking leisurely.."
"Stupid, he still needs his locker combinatiom and key and even his schedule form.."
"Tsk, Lo should have let them mailed it on us... What a lazy guy..."
"Wait!" I snap them from their heated argument. They stop walking while they look at me with annoyed faces.
"What now, shorty?" Darrel ask.
"How old are you guys??" I ask back, my face starts to turn pale.
"Huh, 15 of course!" They both exclaim.
"What?!!"
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Life is full of surprises huh.. I thought to myself as I trudge towards the Dining Hall.
Like this school. As if I'm transported towards a different era, while I look at the hard brick walls. High ceiling with elegant chandeliers and spotless beige tiled floor.
I quirk my brows when I saw a lot of paintings on the wall, and I feel a deep anger blossom on my chest when I look at the man in the paintings.
Tsk, a true bastard indeed.
As the whole school has the picture of Lo, on every corner of every building all over the academy.
But still my thought drifted towards those three again. And I can't really imagine them as someone with the same age as me.
That's impossible. I mean those three are bigger than me, obviously... not to mention they look older.
A yelp of pain stop me from walking, looking around I didn't see anyone. So I just shrugged my shoulders thinking that it must be my imagination.
"Stop it! Don't touch me!!" Someone yell again.
Looking around, I turn my head but I still didn't see anybody else.
But now, I can feel their presence. And they are just near me. Whirling around I run towards the long corridor on my left then I turn right in a dark corner.
My blood boil when I saw a group of older looking boys, laughing hard to two girls who are hugging each other while a handsome teenage boy tugging the other girl's skirt, lifting it up. Making the others snicker..
Its sickening to watch, and it let unwanted memories lifted within me. Balling my fist tightly I willed the anger within me from coming out..
Then my eyes widen when I realized that one of them is Kia. "Stop it, Lexie don't like you Davie!" She screeched at the boy while she pull the skirts down.
But to my horror one of them who has a ripped body suddenly grab Kia from behind.
"Thanks Ash, that one is being so damn noisy.." The one who called Davie exclaim while she hug the other girl who starts sobbing when Davie start groping her chest.
Oh God...
"As usual..but please make it quick.." Ash exclaim boredly as he starts to drag a hysterical Kia.
"No! Don't! Stop it you bastard!!!" Kia shout but Ash suddenly cover her mouth..stopping her from shouting.
I've seen Kia as someone who is strong, fierce and unstoppable. Hard headed and stubborn. But seeing her cry like this as she trembles hopelessly while watching her friend harrased like this.. It pained me, and I finally felt my self broke out.
"Stop it." My voice is cold and emotionless and I'm sure my eyes looks the same. As its always when I'm angry.
They stop, and snap their heads towards me. The handsome guy drop the girl while he smile at me. "And who is this cutie.. I never saw you before.. Are you new??" He ask sweetly.
But it sounds like a dying pig for me, well he's really a dead man for me. I saw Ash, remove his hold over Kia as she run over her friend who is crying on the ground.
I saw Davie walks slowly at me while he licks his lips hungrily. "You're obviously a boy but you are more cuter than her...so whatever eh.." He state when he stop in front of me and lift my chin.
"Don't touch him!!!" Kia suddenly yelled worriedly. "You're going to pay once you lay your dirty finger over him, you filthy son of a bitch.."
In those words Davie's face morph with anger as he grip my chin tightly. "You know Kia, I don't really want to do this to you, because your brother is a great business partner of my father but you don't gave me any choice.." His eyes become cold as he tilt his head and look at the others. "I don't care who, but whoever likes to, you can do her..."
The others faces begin to smirk evilly as they look at Kia with hungry filled eyes, the look that I'm very familiar with.. And I know what will happen to her if I don't do something..
My body moves on its own, Davies hollered with pain when I grab his hands and twist it painfully, not letting go until I heard it snap in my hands. Then I let my body fall while I maneuvered my legs, and kick him on the chin breaking his jaw.
While he's falling I run pass him and came in front of Kia, suddenly I saw hordes of guys running towards us. Without hesitating I let out a couple of jabs and kick repeatedly towards them.
It didn't even take a minute, my father will be so proud if he knew. But whatever.
All of them were now lying on the ground howling from so much pain. And for me I didn't even sweat, my clothes were still in perfect condition, my face blank and expressionless.
Suddenly, I felt a hand grab mine dragging me away from there.
Looking in front, I saw Kia holding my hand while she run away with her friend safely on her side..
Sigh..at least their safe...
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''That's awesome!'' The girl, Lexie states when we are all sitting down outside the school, while waiting for our rides. ''And thank you for helping us.. Masha..'' She murmur softly while she drop her head shyly.
After we run away from their group we hide in the infirmary, and wait until the school let out. Not really wanting to saw those guys again, I agree with Kia when she ask me to go with them resulting on us to cut all our remaining classes.
I'm not really complaining but I'm still scared that Lo, might get angry with me if he ever heard about this. Sigh.. my life is really complicated.
I smile at Lexie, ''Its alright.'' She suddenly blushed hard when she look up at me with glistening eyes, and honestly it makes me very uncomfortable..
Looking at her like this, I can understand Davie for liking her. Because she's pretty with gorgeous pinkish skin, silky wavy blonde hair and big doe brown eyes.. But its a wonder why he's interest suddenly turn at me when he first saw me. Last time I check I'm clearly a boy and I'm far from beautiful and being attractive.
''Bye, Lexie our ride is here..'' Kia suddenly exclaim when a black Sedan stop in front of us.
Lexie's eyes become sad as she looks at Kia. ''Okay, but call me once you arrive okay.... I want to tell you something....'' She states but whisper the last words, while she looks at me with blushing cheeks before she run away.
''Don't tell anyone what happened today, shorty.. and I won't make your life miserable.'' Kia whisper to my ear before she open the door but before she completely gets in the car she snap her head at me. ''And don't ever think that because you saved Lexie I will accept you.. Because I will never approve of you...'' Then she get in, leaving me there speechless.
Seriously...
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I let out a tired sigh when I came in, while I look at Kia's back as she walk inside the house.
I don't understand her. I know that I save her and her friend but its not because I want her to accept me or I want her approval. I am not like that. And I would never thought about it. I know what it felt to be used, so I can't possibly imagine myself doing the same. That's so wrong..
My head suddenly snap towards the living room when I heard an unfamiliar voice talking with Ms. Leny and Lo. I saw Jess and Darrel with annoyed faces as they peek from the stairs.
"What are--"
But my mouth stop moving when I heard something that shut me completely.
"But Lo, I'm your fiancee..."
My eyes snap back at the people in the room. Then I saw Lo look at me weirdly before he let out a sigh and move his head away from me.
Not even a welcoming greet from him, as if my presence doesn't matter anymore.
I felt something stab my chest, but the others doesn't see any change on my face as my expression remains neutral.
"That's the ugly bitch will going to be Brother Lo's bride... That's impossible..." Jess growl under her breath.
"Totally impossible!!" Darrel said.
I shrugged my shoulders but didn't comment as I walk passed them.
"Where are you going Masha??" Jess suddenly ask, his voice sounds worried.
I look back at him, and let out a fake smile. "I'm just going to rest.. I'm tired.."
I slam my door shut when I came inside my room and slump down, while I clutch my chest tightly around my hands.
Those words still rings on my ears and it brings unimaginable pain inside of me.
What is this??
Suddenly I felt wet liquids, falling from my cheeks. Looking at it.. I realized that I'm crying..
Am I crying because of him??
The pain intensify, making my body numb. My mind swirl and I felt nauseous.
It hurts...
So much..
Like I'm dying...
Dropping my body, on the hard wood floor I tightly grip my hair when a sob break out from me.
Uncontrollable tears cascade from my cheeks while I bit my lips hard with my teeth, muffling my screams..
Am I hurting because I felt something towards Lo..
Is this falling in love meant..
But father, said that its the most blissful feeling in the world that will filled you with so much happiness.
But why am I hurting?
I slowly remove my self from the floor, and trudge towards the bathroom.
My hideous form greeted me when I looked at the mirror. My eyes are puffy while my face is messy, and my hair is disheveled and my nose is snotty.
Then I remember the girl in the living room.
A beautiful woman, gorgeous and elegant, a total match for him...
Because like my face and my body, my insides is filthy and dirty too.. I don't deserve him. I don't deserve to fall in love.
Yes, no matter what I can never change the fact that I will never deserve a perfect guy like him.
I'm still a brat, not like that pretty woman.. And I'm even a boy..a total disappointment..a lost cause..
He won't ever love me, especially if he learned who I really am...
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