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"私は赤ちゃんを知っています、私は知っています," (I know baby, I know,) I said as I patted Malachi's back, trying to quiet him down, "You gotta be quiet baby so Papi can sleep," I told him quietly, looking over at Mattia in his hospital bed.
Who was barely hanging on. "Roshaun," I called out quietly. Roshaun walked over, "Yeah? what's wrong?" He asked, "Can you take Malachi, just hold him until he falls asleep. He already ate, but I think he pooped, so could you change his diaper please," I asked, and Roshaun nodded as he opened his arms, I laid Malachi down in them and thanked him.
"We'll be in the waiting room after," Roshaun said to me, taking Malachi's diaper bag then leaving. "Yeah, thanks again," I said as he walked out, whispering sweet words to Malachi. I turned back around to Mattia as I heard the glass door close behind me.
He wasn't doing so well. They said that the bullet didn't go straight through, but that it broke into little pieces which made surgery for him and his body hard. But they did it anyway, he almost bled out, but he's okay, at least for now.
Marcos in jail, that bastard is finally where he belongs. Ms. Luca called the cops, and I'm glad she did. I'm sure doing that was hard, thinking that you love someone, then them hurting you and your family is devastating. I put my hand in his, crying when I felt how cold he was. His skin was pale, he looked different, so different. Like he was in a coffin. Like a vampire.
"I've seen you look better," I said quietly. Even in a hospital bed he still looked beautiful. "Marco is gone...and he won't hurt you or your mom anymore Tia," I whispered to him, rubbing his knuckles.
"Your gonna get better......you have to...because I didn't go through 20 hours of labor for us to meet our son, for something to happen to you..." I said as I looked down at my lap. "I know you'll be okay...because your Mattia," I said, leaning down and kissing his hand. "I love you Mattia Polibio," I whispered.
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"Kairi?" I heard a quiet voice ask from behind me, I turned around and smiled softly seeing Alvaro, holding the glass door open, "Hmm?" I asked, "Ro changed Malachi's diaper, and he even took a nap after, for two hours. But he woke up crying, and he keeps grabbing at Roshauns shirt near his chest, I think he's hungry." Alvaro told me.
And I nodded. "Yeah, I'll be right there," I told him, he nodded then walked off. "I'll be right back," I promised Mattia as I stood up, letting go of his hand and leaving the room to go down the hall to the waiting room where the boys were.
"No Mal, I can't feed you," I heard Roshaun say to Malachi, shaking his head as he caressed his cheek, I walked over and smiled sadly at him, "Thanks Ro," I told him, he handed him over to me with a smile, "Yeah, sure," He said.
"Hi Angel, hi baby, uh, Robert, can you get me a blanket or ask a nurse for a cover-up, I forgot mine at home," I said as I sat down next to Alejandro and held Malachi close to my chest. "Yeah, I'll ask," He replied before walking over to the front desk where a nurse was. "You need help?" Ale asked, putting his phone down on his lap.
"Yeah, can you just pull my shirt up to my chest," I asked as I got Malachi situated, Ale listened and frabbed into the bottom of my shirt and pulled it up, " Here, I got it," Robert said, holding up a small and thin baby blanket.
"Thanks, uh, once he starts eating will you just throw it over his face and my chest," I told him, and he nodded, holding it up. Even if I've been chest feeding for two weeks, It still didn't feel normal. Just like walking. it hurt like hell but I hated complaining. Robert threw the blanket over Malachi and my chest just like I asked then sat back down.
"Eats like he hasn't in years." Ale joked as he went back on his phone, "Yeah, it pisses me off when he starts crying for more." I said, brushing my hand through his long and soft hair, "He really is like Mattia," He told me, wrapping an arm around me and rubbing my shoulder.
"Yeah," I said, hearing my voice breaking. I leaned my head on Ale's shoulder as Mal continued eating, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have brought it up," Ale apologized. But I shook my head. "N-no, you-you didn't mean it viciously, i-its okay," I told him. "I just really need him to be okay," I cried, Ale, leaned down and kissed my head, rubbing my shoulder comfortingly.
"He will be, c'mon we're all rooting for him," Ale told me, and he was right. Roshaun and Alvaro dropped everything when they found out Mattia was shot. I don't know what I would have done if they hadn't shown up and helped me. "I-I know," I said breathlessly. "CODE BLUE, CODE BLUE, CODE BLUE." we all heard.
I sat up before Malachi started crying. Nurses and Doctors ran down the hallway. Please don't turn right, please don't turn right. I begged inside my head. But of course, they all did. I quickly stood up and pulled my shirt down, throwing the blanket off of me and handing Malachi to Ale.
It hurt but I quickly went down the hall to Mattia's room, who was laying down on his bed, the doctors that were with him had blood on their hands, I looked at his gown to see blood was showing through the white fabric.
"W-whats going on?" I asked one of the doctors who was close friends with Dr. Adams, "He's bleeding out from his wound, we have to get him back up surgery. He'll be fine Kairi. I promise you." Dr. O'Donnell said as a couple of staff members helped to push his bed and him out of the room.
"Oh my god," I said quietly, putting a hand over my mouth to quiet my cries. "It's okay, c'mon Kai let's sit down," I heard Robert say to me, putting his hands on my shoulders. "I-I," I tried to say but I couldn't, it felt like a huge rock was stuck in my throat.
"I-I ca-can't breathe," I said putting a hand on my chest, feeling like the walls were closing in on me. "C'mon, c'mon let's get some air," Ale said, "Vera, hold Malachi," Ale said, "Yeah...c'mere baby, come here," He said, taking Malachi in his arms before Ale took my hand and pulled me down the hallway to the exit.
He pulled me outside and rubbed my back as my breathing quickened. "Kairi, calm down, calm down," Alejandro told me, "I-I can't. He-he's gonna die, something's gonna happen to him, I can't. Alejandro, I can't do this alone," I said, my throat starting to hurt as I gasped for air. "Kairi, Kairi c'mon breathe," He said, holding onto my arms.
"Kai, I think you're having a panic attack, just calm down okay, breathe with me. One, breathe in, two, breathe out, three, breathe in," Ale told me, rubbing my back.
"You're doing great Kairi, calm down. Please calm down." He begged me, "Your not alone Kai, we're here. Mattia will be fine." He told me, "I-I can't lose him, i-if he dies, I can't go on. I can't do this whole thing on my own." I shook my head, grabbing onto his sleeve.
"C'mere Kai, come here," He said, pulling me towards him, I grabbed onto his shirt squeezing it in my fists. "He'll be fine. He's gonna make it through the surgery. Please, Kai, breathe, please just-just calm down," Ale told me. I felt the burning sensation in my throat start to go away, I stopped shaking as much as I was before. But that does not mean I'm okay.
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"Kairi? Are you okay?" Robert asked quietly as we walked back to the waiting room. I sighed as Ale looked over at me, "Y-yeah," I nodded, before looking around at the boys, "Where's Mal?" I asked before Alvaro walked in, "I got him," He said, holding Mal. "Thanks," I said before sitting down in the chair behind me, rubbing my sweaty palms on my sweatpants.
I laughed seeing the sweat stains I had left from my hands, Mattia always made fun of my clammy hands, even before when we weren't dating. Like at Chuck E. Cheese for my birthday, when we got lost in the tube slides and had to hold hands to find our way out. I still remember exactly what he said and the face he made when he did.
"Where's the exit?" Mattia asked as we sat down in the yellow slide, "How would I know," I said before crawling down to where the big window was. "Lookit! I see your mom," I said, leaning my face against the glass before backing up so Mattia could see. "See, I told you they would get food for us," Mattia said as he saw his mom putting pizza down on the table and calling after the kids to come to eat.
"C'mon we gotta get out of there gonna eat all the food," Mattia said as he looked for a way out. "Come on, hold my hand so we don't get lost." Mattia said, holding his hand out to me, I took it with hesitation as we both climbed through the tubes, "Ew, your hands are sweaty as hell," He said, letting go of my hand and wiping his palm on his jeans.
"Sorry," I apologized quietly, "It's fine, just remind me next time we hold hands that your palms are clammy," Mattia said. I smiled before we kept crawling out of the tubes. Not the most romantic thing, but it's definitely a funny memory.
We must have sat there for hours because my ass was hurting. I looked over at Malachi to see he was looking up at Alvaro with his eyes open, and sucking his thumb like the word depended on it. Jesus.
"Kairi Polibio?" I looked up to see Dr. O'Donnell with a clipboard in her hands, "I-I'm Kairi, but we're not married," I told her as I stood up, "Sorry Kairi, I forgot but-uhm," She sighed as she looked down at her hands, with no expression on her face, just blank nothing. No, oh god please no. Please no, no, no. Please don't tell me he's gone, Please don't tell me he's gone.
"Mattia is fine," She said with a smile, hearing those words almost made me lose it. He's okay. Mattia he's okay. "We fixed the bleeding, he's stable, better than before. We didn't realize so we did more scans but we found out that we forgot a tiny piece of the bullet left. But he's okay now," She said.
I almost dropped to my knees hearing it all. "T-thank you, thank you so much." I cried, "Your welcome." She said, I put my face in my hands and turned around to feel strong arms crush me in a hug.
Mattia.....my Mattia.... Mattia Polibio, he's okay, he's gonna be okay. I won't be alone, and neither will be.
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I leaned my head on Mattia's hand, that wasn't so cold as it was before. "Your gonna be okay...." I whispered, "I'm sorry for doubting you," I looked up at him, smiling so hard because he was gonna live.
We were in a special hospital room so Malachi couldn't be in here, right now he was with the boys, but I knew if Mattia woke up he'd want to hold Mal, "If Mal could speak I'm positive he'd be asking for you," I told him with a quiet laugh.
"You gotta wake up soon, because I'm exhausted and wanna sleep. But I'll only fall asleep as long as I'm in your arms," I told him, leaning back on my chair chair and taking a blanket that a nurse gave me, covering my body. "Sorry, if my hands are sweaty," I apologized to him. "I know you hate that." I said.
"Squeeze my hand when your awake Tia," I told him, closing my eyes and entwining our fingers.
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"Papi will wake up soon, don't worry," I told Malachi, kissing his forehead. "He'll wake up soon and you can be with him papas," I whispered, "You know Papi loves you...mhmm, with his whole heart...Papi loves you so much and you don't even know it." I played with his hair, pushing it back and admiring his tiny hands.
"Hmm," I heard someone say, I looked behind me to see if Ale, Rob, Ro, or Vera were there, but I didn't see anyone, just a nurse at her desk. Then looked at Mattia's bed. gasping when I saw Mattia try to open his eyes. "M...Mattia?" I asked, grabbing onto his hand, before K heard him groan.
"C-clammy...hands," He said with a smirk, trying to fully open his eyes, "Oh m-my god, your even more beautiful than before Kai," He told me, reaching his arm to touch my cheek. It felt completely unreal feeling his touch again.
"I love you Mattia," I whispered, feeling tears run down my cheeks, before Mattia quickly wiped them. "Sorry to burst your bubble, but I'm here to stay," He said groggily, "Jesus...I've been awake for two minute and you haven't offered me a bottle of water for my sore throat." Mattia laughed.
I giggled before getting up and grabbing the water bottle at his side table. "Here you dick," I said, putting the straw up to his lips, "Don't you ever do that again," I told him, he smiled and nodded, "I won't ever get shot again, that's a promise," He told me.
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"I'm so sorry Kai. I would never ever forgive myself if he were to hurt Mal," Mattia said as we looked down at Malachi, I had to help him hold him, with an arm under his back because Mattia still couldn't hold Malachi up on his own yet. "Ma-" I stopped speaking when Mattia interrupted again. "No. I'm so sorry, you don't need to forgive me but just know I'm an idiot. It's my fault Marco got mad. I'm so, so sorry babe," Mattia said looking over at me with as sad face.
"You don't have to apologize for something that isn't your fault." I told him, kissing his temple. "I know your sorry Mattia but you don't have to be..." I said, smiling sadly at him. "I just wanna lay with you." Mattia said, leaning his head on my shoulder. "Me too, but you need to heal," I said. "Mhmm," Mattia said, kissing Mal's forehead.
"Papi loves you, to the moon and back." He whispered, I smiled hearing him talk to Malachi. Malachi reached his hand up and placed it on Mattia's cheek. "I love you," Mattia said, kissing his tiny hand.
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I threw Malachi's onesie that he spit up on in the washing machine with some of mine and Mattia's clothes. I closed the laundry room door behind me, smiling when I heard Mattia giggling up in my room. I walked up the stairs with ease. And opened my room door, smiling at the sight.
Mattia and Malachi were laying down on a huge soft and white blanket on the ground. Malachi on his belly and Mattia on his back, "Whatcha' guys doing?" I asked as I closed the door behind me. "Doing tummy time," Mattia shrugged. "Awe, you like doing tummy time with papi?" I asked as I sat down by Malachi.
He just cooed and flailed his arms around. "Are you being careful?" I asked Mattia as I looked over at him. "It's been two weeks Kai. I'm okay," Mattia said, "I don't care if it's been a year. You have to be careful Mattia, don't overwork yourself." I said, giving him a stern look. "Yeah,, yeah, okay," He said, leaning over and pecking my lips.
I gave him a serious look and folded my arms over my chest. "Okay, okay, I'll be careful." He sighed as we both looked down at Mal, who just had a funny look on his face.
"I promise. I'll take it easy," Mattia told me, kissing me a few times, I smiled knowing he was just kissing me to shut me up and change the topic.
"Mmm, I love you," Mattia said, breaking apart from our kiss. "I love you," I said. "Ah!" Malachi shrieked. We both laughed as we looked down at him. "We love you too Mal," I said as I scooted over towards him and picked him up, laying him down between me and Mattia.
We both kissed his cheeks putting him in an ice cream sandwich. He just had a goofy look on his face the whole time.
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dude, that's cute.