Chapter Two
(Aiden)
Months have gone by but I can't say how many. More than five or six. Or maybe it's been a whole year that I've been here and I don't even know. I really don't know when every day feels like it lasts forever.
I use to keep track in the beginning by the sunlight shinning in through the small window in this room they've kept me in. Mostly out of boredom as I guessed the time it was. Something to do during the beginning to see how long they were going to keep me until they would release me and let me go. I figured a month or so but I was so wrong.
A month came and went and I'm still here. She was serious when she said she wasn't going to let me go and I hate her even more. I thought the bullies at my schools were bad but an evil doctor is worse when she has access to me from the inside out. She could kill me if she wanted to but I know that's not what she wants. She wants me alive so she can torture me everyday.
I used to like being alone before not wanting to be around people but now I take it back. Spending a majority of the day alone without being able to have any communication is something I've started to hate. I have no choice unlike before when I wanted to be alone in my room. Now I have to and if I'm 'lucky' she'll come and visit during the day. Sitting in the seat near me to talk when she knows I can't stand her.
Then again being left by myself is worse when I get to constantly hear my thoughts. I think too much when I'm alone, hoping and dreaming of getting out of here. Wishing when I eventually fall asleep that when I open my eyes I'll be told I can never and everything will go back to the way it is. But I know none of that is going to happen. I've given up long ago that today would be the day I was going to be able to walk out of here.
She doesn't want me to and no amount of whinning, begging, pleading, shouting, screaming or regular talking is going to change her mind. None of it matters. My opinion to her is nothing. I have no say in my life and probably never will. I guess that means it's not my life when she's holding my fate in her hands. Dangling freedom if I agree to her terms which I'll never do. So I suppose that leaves me stuck here being restraint to a freaking hospital bed for I don't know how long.
It's pretty ironic how something I always hated is the thing that got me in this mess. If I would have just listened to my dads about being careful I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't have gotten pregnant and went into labor at school. Jake wouldn't have followed me to the bathroom and got the nurse after I passed out from the pain. None of this would be happening. Or maybe it still would when it would have changed me still meeting Kaleb and liking him.
Two babies a daughter and a son is what I got out of the short relationship I had with Kaleb and I haven't been able to see or even hold them. She won't let me and I'm starting to think I'll never to get to. I know I said I never wanted kids before because I hated what I was compatible of doing. Ashamed of being more different than I already am on the outside but that was before. It was before I found out I was pregnant and I started to love them. I didn't hate them or regret getting pregnant with them when they are a part of me.
Yeah I was going to have to raise them alone with the help of my parents but I was okay with that. I was prepared to grow up and be the parent they needed. I planned on protecting the both of them against anything bad. To make whatever that is hurting them or making them sad better. But I haven't been able to do that and it makes me feel so helpless. I feel so bad when I can't take them away from all this to give them a happy life they deserve. Instead I brought them into a world where they will probably call this hospital their home and not know what it's like to go outside. They won't understand what they are when they'll only be told they are her project she's working on.
I hear the sound of the door opening and I come back from my thoughts wishing it wasn't her that is entering the room. I don't bother looking at her but stare at the white wall to my right hoping she'll get the message to leave me alone. "I just wanted to check up on you today." she says, her voice so deceiving as she pretends to be an innocent caring doctor that hasn't done anything wrong.
"Oh, how nice of you." I reply sarcastically.
"So how are you today?" she asks and I'm trying so hard not to call her every curse name I know.
I stay quiet as I curse her in my head. Does she get off on mocking me? Or can she not see how evil a person she is?
"I take it you're not wanting to talk today?" she says breaking the silence.
"Why would I?" I mumble as I give into having a conversation that is going to go no where.
"Aiden, I'm not a bad person like you think I am." she replies and I find it hard not to laugh.
"Yeah right. Then why won't you let me go? I get it you're interested and curious to know how I got pregnant and had two babies but come on? Is it worth keeping me here against my will? I'm not an animal you can chain up and leave. And even if I was it's wrong." I retort.
"I never said you were an animal. I've told you many times before I can't let you just walk out of here with your two babies. All of this can't simply go away because you ask for it to. Besides I can't even if I wanted to now." the same answer she always gives.
"Yes, you can. I can tell you everything you need and want to know about this. I'll tell you how it was possible and then you can explain it to everyone else. Let them know and after I can go home and live my life." I plead feeling so pathetic and weak.
"That sounds like a good idea Aiden but that's not all I had in mind. I have plans for you which involves you staying and-" she says before I cut her off.
"That's not happening! No matter what you say I'm not going to. I'm going to get out of here someday."
Aiden that's never going to happen. You don't have a choice when I have total control over you. I'm allowed to do whatever I want o you when so many people are curious to know all about this. It isn't every day I come across a male that can become pregnant and I know it won't be the last. See we have plans for people like you and if you agree to do as I say then I'll be willingly to be a bit nice." she says.
"Nice? And what's nice to you?" I reply finding it hard to believe she knows what the word means.
"Letting you see your daughter and son." she answers.
"You're lying!" I yell.
"Do you know that for sure? Are you willing to give up the chance to finally meet them?" her expression not changing to reveal if what she's saying is the truth or another lie.
"What do you want me to do?" I ask.
"I knew you would agree." a smile across her face.
"I'm not agreeing. I only want to know what you want out of me." I state.
"To see how it's possible which will mean we will have to start from the beginning. You've had time to recover so it's time to try our first attempt. To see how it all works during the course of a full pregnancy from beginning to end. I'm curious how it is you got pregnant and I plan on learning everything I can during the next years. See this is my research and I don't plan on stopping until I discover everything. If you agree to this it will make all of this easier. I'll let you see them in due time or else I'll send them away and you'll never get to meet them." she explains and I'm tempted to say yes at the chance to see them.
"Where are they right now?" I question.
"Somewhere safe at the moment. You're daughter isn't of use to me so I sent her away to a married couple a few hours away. Your son on the other hand is still here a feet away from you staying in one of the rooms in this hospital." she replies.
"So you want me to get pregnant and have a baby? Then what? What are you going to do to the baby?"
"Let you all go like I already said. I only want to see how it's possible. I'll finish my work and let everyone go if you're willing to do as I ask of you. You, your daughter, son, parents and everyone else. All I want is one person I can use." she says.
"And you promise you'll let us go?"
"I promise. I will even let you see your son today." she says and just then the door opens with a woman walking in with him and stands near the door.
"I thought you were going to let me see him." I ask wondering why she is just standing there.
"I am. I never promised I would let you hold him today and spend time together. That'll be for another day." what she says making me question if this is worth it but as I look at him I know it is. This is my only option.