365 Days | Reylo 🌻🦋

Chapter 24

Rey smiled as she stared into the same striking hazel eyes that matched his father's. "I'm surprised his eye color is already showing. I've read that it takes months to find out the true color of a newborn's eyes."

"We'll just have to see if they change then. Either way, he's perfect."

When Han's tiny mouth opened into a small 'o,' Ben pulled him away to place him back into the hospital provided bassinet beside her bed before taking a seat next to Rey – lifting her hand gently in his.

When Rey took a sudden intake of breath, Ben stood and reached for the button to alert the nurses.

"Don't, I'm fine. I just thought about Kylo Ren. Is he okay? I remember him getting shot too because he was shielding me from the other bullets."

"Dammit, woman," he sighed, then chuckled before retaking his seat with his hand back on top of hers. "Kylo Ren is fine and was released yesterday. He's resting in our home with Armitage and Rose, and he will be staying with us while he recovers."

"Good, I'm glad. Does this mean you've forgiven him for...?"

"We are now brothers as we should have always been because of what he was willing to do for our family and for you. It will take some time to become acclimated to each other, but I think he'll fit in just fine with all of us."

"Oh, I know he will. I'll have to thank him properly when we get home."

Ben smiled as her hand shifted so that she held his hand instead – the corner of her lips pulling downward when she felt what was on it.

"Why is there a bandage wrapped around your hand?"

"I punched a wall the other day."

"Poor wall. I hope it learned its lesson after getting in the way of Don Ben Solo."

The corner of his mouth lifted as a chuckle left him, but it quickly faltered as he gazed into Rey's eyes with remorse.

"Why do you look so sad? What is going through that gorgeous head of yours?" Rey wanted to run her fingers through his silky tresses but reframed from doing so at the reminder of the pain it would cause her.

"I almost... I almost lost you again, Rey. You have no idea just how much I love you and how scared I was of losing you, again. When I saw you bleeding out in my arms as you closed your eyes, your blood coating my hands..."

Ben paused as he brushed his knuckles along her cheeks to wipe the tears that flowed down her face as his heart squeezed painfully as he recalled the events that shook him to his core – never wanting to experience such agonizing pain again.

"I thought I would have to raise Han by myself without you, but I don't think I could have because he would remind me of you and what I lost if you had died. And I hate myself because this all happened because of me. All of this pain you've endured is because of me because you are associated with me. If I were a good man, I would let you go so you could live a happy, normal life away from all this shit with my family. I was selfish and only thought about myself and brought you into my world, and because of that you know the pain of getting shot and being kidnapped against your will... Yet, despite everything you've been through because of my self-centered actions, I just can't seem to let you go. I can't imagine or live without you in my life anymore because I'm a selfish bastard."

Rey smiled despite her tears. "I don't want a good man or any other man, Ben. I want you, and nothing is going to stop me from loving or wanting only you. If you were to send me away, again, I would find my way back to you by any means necessary so please never say you're going to 'let me go' even though you don't truly intend on doing it. I also, can't live without you because I selfishly only want you – good or bad."

Ben lowered his head to kiss the back of her hand before grinning brightly. "Good because you are stuck with me for the rest of our lives."

"Just as you are stuck with me. However..."

Straightening in his chair, a brow lifted as one side of his mouth lifted in amusement. "However?"

"If you did let me go to live a normal life, would you have kept tabs on me?"

"Of course, I would have watched you from the shadows to make sure nothing bad would have befallen you."

"That's not fair! You would have seen me, but I would never have gotten to see you again."

He shrugged as his smile turned into a sly smirk. "You would have never known."

"And if I found another man to be with?"

"I would have put the fear of God in him and scared him away. Hell, I might have even gotten Chewie involved so I can watch a grown man piss himself again."

Rey laughed softly. "So I would have eventually died as a nun?"

"I'd make sure I would have been the last dick to have the pleasure of being inside of you."

"Not fair again! You would have gotten all the pussy you wanted, but I wouldn't get any dick."

"Woman, you would have been the last pussy I'd ever seen, eaten, and fucked. No one would or will ever compare."

"Crazy man."

"Only for you. And your pussy."

Rey cackled, causing her to wince in pain.

"Fuck, sorry. I'll try not to be so devilishly charming and funny. I can get the nurse for you if you want more pain killers."

"No, I'm okay. No more talking about dicks and pussies, at least not until I'm better."

"God, I love you, Rey. So fucking much."

"I love you, too, Ben~"