Winning Hurricane

XLVII- Chills

Mabilis kong niligpit lahat ng books at nilagay sa single sofa. Ayokong sa kitchen area kami kakain.. walang magiging ingay, di gaya dito na may TV.

He opened the two bento box, and I really struggled not to swallow hard as the smell of tonkatsu and sushi entered my nostrils. Guard! He really do knows my weaknesses, huh.

"Let's eat." He placed the other bento sa harap ko bago inabot ang utensils and tissue.

I just quietly eat my food habang nakaharap sa TV, paminsan minsan sinisilip ko siya.. and he was just smiling. Like, he's really contented. He's happy. Napatingin siya sakin at kumindat. "I can't melt right now, Chandy."

"Why did you wait for me?" I asked.

Because I'm really thinking why did he still wait for me..

Wala naman kasing kasiguraduhan na babalik pa sa dati ang lahat.

He blinked, halatang nagulat sa bigla kong pag-tatanong.

Well, hindi lamang siya ang magaling sa surprises. I must say.

He licked his lips as he glanced at his food before settling his eyes on me. Then he smiled. "Because what we had was something enough for me to remember in this lifetime.. but I want more. I need more of you. I know in myself I could never love anyone else as much as I love you, Chandy and I can't.. I really can't in my deepest conscience choose another woman just to give her a half-baked all because I poured every love I have for you." He said with a small smile and whole sincerity.

My eyes watered.

Because I know.. I know what he feels..

I know I can never love someone else they way I loved him again..

It's a waste to try another chapter with someone else but at the same time it's also scary to rewrite the story we once ended.

"But you doubted your love for me, right?"

"That was my biggest mistake. The moment I lose you, that's when I realized everything."

I nodded. "Hindi ka napagod?"

Dahan dahan siyang umiling pero nang tumingin siya sakin tumango agad siya. "I already lose my hope but Cyclone keeps on updating how bitter you are.. na it's a proof you still have feelings for me.. kahit konti, and I held on to that."

Masasakal ko talaga si Cyclone. Napaka-tsismoso! Never, as-in never ko naisip na naiisip niyang bitter ako at ikekwento pa niya sa kapatid niya because never naman niyang binaggit sakin si Hurricane ever since our break-up!

"Ikaw.. did you wait?"

I poured water on my glass bago ako tumingin sa kanya pabalik.

"I don't know.."

"You don't know?"

"I don't know if it's really waiting.. since explanation mo lamang ang inantay ko pero hindi yong babalik ka pa.. na magkakabalikan tayo.."

Siguro nong mga paunang taon.. pero hindi ko na'yon sasabihin. Ayokong pag-sisihan namin ng paulit-ulit lahat ng mga nasayang na taon sa aming dalawa because those seven years na we're apart.. we both grow.

"But you lived your life, right?"

"Yes."

"And I lived mine."

I nodded again. Confused.

"Maybe.. we can live it together again."

I blinked. My heart beat doubled.