In Our Nightmares | TordTom

Chapter 23

Art by me

Holy shit did my art style change- :') It looks so different from that now

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Tord's POV

I began sobbing uncontrollably when they disappeared. I fell and hugged myself as I curled up. After a long time I calmed down. My breathing was shaky and my vision was still blurry. I shakily sat up and my hands were shaking

What a strange being you are

I looked around as my voice rang through the void. (Pretend it's Tord singing-) I was confused until I realized what song it was. A song I made back in highschool

God knows where I would be if you hadn't found me sitting all alone in the dark

No scene had appeared. Only me and Tom. I stood in a distance from him, he had his back turned to me. I was looking at his turned back. A red string connecting both of our hands

A dumb screenshot of youth

I took a step forward towards Tom

Watch how a cold broken teen will desperately lean on a superglued human of proof

He looked behind himself to me

What the hell would I be without you

And he disappeared

Brave face talk so lightly

The scene changed. I was standing in a distance behind the guys. They all had their backs turned to me, there was still a string connected to my hand and Tom's

Hide the truth

They began walking away. I went forward. Towards Tom

Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates

"Thomas-"

So where do we begin

He only glanced back before continuing to walk away. The string pulling along

I can finally see you're as fucked up as me

I tripped a bit I was pulled forward

So how do we win?

"Thomas!"

I'm sick of losing soulmates

He faded away

Won't be alone again

With one last tug, I stumbled forward and fell

I can finally see you're as fucked up as me

I began tearing up

So how do we win?

Picture like memories appeared. Starting from when we were kids

We will grow old as friends

The memories showed us getting older and older until the present

I've promised that before so what's one more?

I still sat on the ground. I was still crying

In our grey haired circle waiting for the end

Tom appeared again as I looked up

Time and hearts will wear us thin

He stared at me

So which path will you take cause we both know a break does exactly what it says on the tin

And I stared back

What the hell would I be without you?

He turned and began walking away

Brave face talk so lightly

"Thomas.."

Hide the truth

He stopped

Cause I'm sick of losing soulmates

"Please don't leave me here.."

So where do we begin

He turned around again. Looking at me

I can finally see you're as fucked up as me

"I n-need you.."

So how do we win?

Tom began walking towards me

I'm sick of losing soulmates

I stared at him weakly. Tears still slid down my cheeks

Won't be alone again

I watched as he held his hand out to me

I can finally see you're as fucked up as me

I looked at it before grabbing it and pulling myself up

So how do we win?

He pulled me close to him and started into my eyes

I won't take no for an answer

He then connected our lips

My eyes widen and I felt my face heat up. I stared at the two. They kissed. Tom and I kissed. And they still are at the moment. It's odd that that played. I was thinking of that when I wrote and sang the song. But I never thought I'd actually see it happen before me

I wish this was real Thomas...

My voice rang out through the room as Tom and I pulled away. We both faded away. I never knew that this would ever happen here. But, I liked it. I love Thomas. So why would I hate it? The only thing I hate is that it isn't real. I want it to be real

I want it to be real so badly. But it won't. I won't ever be real. I know that. And it hurts to know that I won't be able to be with the one I love. Only because he hates me. Such a dumb thing. I only hope I can fall out of love with him so it won't hurt as much

I want him to be happy. And he'll be happy without me, right? He'll love someone and they'll be happy. I just want him to be happy and if he isn't I'll do anything I could to make him happy again

I would have fantasies often. Imagining us together and happy. I dreamed of being with Tom. Having a family. Just having a happy ending with him. But those are only fantasies. Fantasies that won't happen. Right?

No. Don't get your hopes up Tord. They'll just be crushed. Like always. But I only wish for him to like me back, the same way I do. That would be a miracle. And if he would like me back I would be so happy. I wouldn't throw away the chance to be with him

Who wouldn't want to be with Thomas? He's just so perfect and unique. I always thought he was the best. He was my role model. When I was younger I always wanted to be like him. Or at least close to like him. And when that one time in highschool he took my training in fighting I was happy

It was the time we hung out the most. Even if it just training. I still loved it that Tom hung out with me on his own choice. I offered Edd and Matt as well but they didn't want to. I had trained Matt a bit tho. Showing him some moves for self-defence and stuff. He had to be able to protect himself and plus, we hung out a lot

The only thing I wish to become real is being with Tom

But I never expected it to actually become real