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AFTER WE CAME BACK FROM THE RUN Daryl decided it was best he told Beth about Zach. I'm not sure why, but here we are.
When I came back, I went straight to Carl and Mika hoping that they would cheer me up. I mean it did. Those kids could always cheer me up. But it wasn't enough I guess.
I was sick of losing people. I got myself to a point where I was hopeful for everyone's future here but after Zach's death, I knew that was the start of many.I hated how much I cared. It bothered me. I promised myself that I wouldn't get close to these people but look where that got me.
I hated that I felt like I had to protect these people. I hated that I held Daryl back, risked his life. I hated that no matter what we do someone dies.I walked back through the cafeteria heading to the cell block. I ran my hands through the front of my hair tugging it a little. Really wanted to pull a Britney and go bald.
It was pretty late, majority of the group were in their cells or sleeping.
As I walked back through the cell block, I noticed Beth wrap her arms around Daryl's waist, nuzzling her face into his chest.Breathe Iz. Her boyfriend had just died, it's all okay. I wasn't jealous.
Daryl put his arms around Beth hugging her back.
I wasn't jealous.
He rested his head on top of hers, closing his eyes, smiling while he brushed his cheek against the top of her head.
Fuck it. I was jealous.I cleared my throat causing Daryl to look up at me, he quickly stepped back away from Beth.
I ignored what had just happened and walked up the stairs to my cell.I dove onto my cell bed head first, my head landing on my pillow. I left my face in the pillow before letting out a scream pushing my face deeper into it. I can't say this was the best was to handle my problems. But it definitely helped. If I could let out all of my emotions without killing anyone, that was definitely a positive to me.
I regained my composure, sitting up on the edge of my bed. I leaned down grabbing my rucksack pulling my bottle of bottle of Bacardi out of it.
I opened the bottle before flicking the cap to the other side of the room."That bad huh?" Merle said appearing in my door way.
I looked at him giving him a weak smile shrugging. I had too many emotions.
Before the turn, I wouldn't have given a shit, I was selfish and alone. Don't get me wrong, I would definitely be bothered that someone had died. But the way I felt wasn't normal.
I'm not used to people caring about me and I'm not used to caring about others."C'mon" Merle said nodding his head gesturing for me to follow him.
I stood from my bed, clutching my bottle of Bacardi, I dragged my feet along the floor following Merle. He lead me along the walkway, to his cell.
"Figured you needed a drinking buddy" he announced as he picked up his bottle of bourbon off his bed side table.
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LOVE SCARS || Daryl Dixon
Fanfiction"She wore her troubled past Like scars - She had been through battle And though no one could see her demons They could see the face that conquered them" the walking dead season 2 - 4 | daryl dixon x oc | includes sexual content | realistic slow...