Problem Solving

"simply return it"

But at the same time I want to throw up with nerves and I hate that I'm so attracted to her. Because at least before the kiss I could deny my attraction. Now I literally know I think she's fucking hot or else I wouldn't have kissed her and enjoyed it as much as I did.

And I certainly wouldn't have gone home and accidentally on purpose imagined what may have happened had I been sleeping over at hers again..

Probably nothing right..? But you never know..

And that would've been gay, because for what I'd imagined to happen, we would've had to have taken our clothes off.

"You're still hung up on her?" Alex asks

"No" I scoff, just as Blake answers 'Yes?'

Fuck. They all just look at me

"Like, why're you seriously stuck on her?" I reinforce my 'hatred' for her

"Boobs, body, accent, lips".. well he isn't wrong

"And what about her personality?" I ask. He raises his shoulders

"She won't talk to me. Apparently she's into girls". I feel myself blush, so just hold my cheeks discreetly. "I was talking to her friend and she says she's super into this one girl. She wouldn't say who though"

I almost choke.

What?

That's me right? She said she hadn't kissed anyone since the party and she would've surely kissed them...... right?

"You gonna stop trying Blakey?" Alex babies him and strokes his face. I just remember how Electra felt holding mine.. ugh. I gotta stop doing this.

"I think so. No point chasing a girl that's not into you." He looks down.. aww. He's always so cute. He's wearing some cute black Converse today, with some black ripped skinny jeans and a plain white T-shirt.

Ashley and Alex always look good too. But no one in the world compares to Electra.

And I love how she talks.. So pretty. Princessy. But not a bitch at all. Just perfect..

God, I need to get it together. This is just embarrassing.

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It's time for lesson dishearteningly soon. I don't want to see her. I'm scared.

I hide this fear though, and sit down in my chair. She isn't here yet, which is probably for the best. I have time to mentally prepare.

She doesn't show in like five minutes which is weird, because she's usually early. I decide I may as well sneak onto my phone to distract myself from the lesson. It just isn't the same without her.

'Electra: sneak out of class and come
meet me'

I can't go. I can't talk to her... But the prospect of spending time with her alone does excite me.

'Me: why'

'Electra: idk, spontaneity. U coming?'

.... I must.

'Me: okay but give me a minute to get
outta class'

'Electra: I bet you're an expert. See u in
a bit'

'Me: wait where r we meeting?'

'Electra: the place we smoked'

'Me: ok see u soon' I turn off my phone and slide it into my pocket..