Everything is Only for You (Complete)

Chapter 63

Sana opens her eyes to find Sid in the room. She gets out of the bed and comes near him. He is putting all his journals inside a bag. Sana holds his arm and says,"What are you doing? Why are you putting the diaries inside the bag?" No reply comes from him. "Sidharth trust me, I had read just two pages from your journal. I am sorry please don't do this.", she says. But Sid still does not say anything in return. He closes the bag and puts it on the floor. He goes to the wardrobe to take out his clothes. Sana goes after him and says,"Itna gussa, itna attitude? I said na sorry ab kya karun marjaun?" When she still does not get any response from him, she grabs his t-shirt and says,"Kuch jyada nahi ho raha hai? I am your wife. Can't I have the right of reading your personal diary? Why?" Sid removes her hand from his t-shirt,"How will you feel if someone will sit and listen to your personal talks with your sister or me? Not good na. Breach of privacy right. These are not just journals, these are my conversation with my father. My way of speaking to him. So no, you are not allowed to read them and it doesn't matter if you are my legally wedded wife."

Sana tries to hug Sid as he comes out after a shower,"I am sorry for it. I mean it. Please maaf kardo." Sid stopping her by holding her arms says,"Please mam, stop these dramas of yours. I don't have the status to get your apologies. Kindly keep them for all those sophicatated, high society, civilised people." Sana looks at him and says,"Mam? Phir se mam? Bebu sorry. Yaar main sirf chahti thi tum blazers pehno. Sorry bolana..You also said such a big thing. You want me to leave you. I should be angry here but.." Sid keeps busy brushing his hair, avoiding her. Sana still holds his arm and says,"Sidharth please talk to me. Why are you not talking to me? You shout at me but just talk. Tumhe kasam lage meri." Sid takes a deep breath and says,"What is there to talk Sana? I get it that you want me to wear expensive clothes just to make me fit into your world. And the matter of fact is I..I can never fit there. No matter how much you try I can't be a part of your high society. You are a star, a huge celebrity and I am just a simple middle class man working two jobs. These thing cannot be changed."

Sana looks at him and says,"I am not trying to fit you into my world or change you. But yes I want you to be with me there. What is wrong in getting clothes for you that are costly?" Sid looking at her and says,"Nothing is wrong here. I don't feel comfortable spending money on me and you know that very well." "Please don't start it again. It's my money and I want to spend it on my husband. I want people to see you and admire like that day." Sid smiles and shakes his head,"Exactly. The problem lies here. You don't want to buy things just for me, but you are doing this to show everyone. You want world to see and admire me.Do you really know why? Actually you want to show off in front of your people. You want to show your friends that look my husband is not a middle-class guy. He is not a manager at a restaurant. He is poet, a Gym instructor. He wears clothes like us, looks good in them. Isn't it?"

Sana stays quiet as he continues,"Accept Sana you are ashamed of me, of what I do, of the background I come from." "No Sidharth it is not like that. Trust .."she tries to say. Interrupting her, Sid says,"Trust? Should I really trust you? Sana, I didn't go to you asking your hand for marriage. You read my diary right. So you know what I wrote. I know my place, I always knew it. I knew I could never have you, my crush. I knew the difference in our background. You wanted to marry me knowing my conditions." "I love you Sana. I truely do. But it's hurting what you did, what you are still doing.. And regarding what I said about leaving me, I don't want it. I never asked you to leave nor I ever want that. I said if you have problems with me, you can leave. It is and will be your decision entirely. If you still felt bad, I am extremely sorry for that." He leaves after saying that.

Sidharth is in the restaurant when a staff tells him that a man on the table is asking for him. He goes to that table to find an middle aged man in a light blue shirt. He has standard stature with salt and pepper hair and wears a golden rimmed spectacle. He is with another man, younger than him, wearing a loose shirt with an open jacket and a thick rimmed glasses. His salt and pepper hair has been trimmed from the sides and he has full beard and moustache. Sidharth goes and with a warm smile asks,"Yes sir. What can I do? Did you enjoy the food?" The older man says,"Sidharth, I think you probably don't remember us. Can you sit down for a few minutes? We need to talk to you." Sidharth unable to understand,"I am extremely sorry sir but I can't sit with you now. It's my duty hours. Please tell me what do you want from me?" The younger of them says,"I am director Abhisek Chauhan and he is Subhash Chowdhry,Producer. We met at Shahir Khan's house. Sana had intorduced us to you."