I hate you, I love you

Chapter 25

Valerie

The first thing I did when I land in Miami was to go to Sebastian's house. It was late, so I supposed that he must be at home.

After my day in Chicago I couldn't be more sure of what I felt for him. Because the moment that things ended with Jim I felt relieved. Like a huge weight was taken of my shoulders. Like I wasn't being myself with him, not like I was with Bass.
And I was sad that my relationship with Jim couldn't get their way, but I felt happy that now I was going to be free to be with Bass, with no guilt, with no regrets.

I knocked on the door and Sylvie opened, she was wearing a silk pink robe and her white hair was messy.

"Sylvie hi! I'm sorry, did I wake you?" I said a little bit cheery.
"No sweetie" she said.
"Is Bass home?" I asked hopeful
"He isn't, actually he went to Aspen" she said a pity expression
"Aspen?" I asked
"Why don't you come in, I was just about to take a cup of tea, looks like you could use one" she said
"Sounds great" I said.
I sat on the kitchen table and Sylvie sat in front of me, she poured me a cup of tea
"What is he doing in Aspen?" I asked
"After you left, he was so down, it's been hard for him, between his father and what happened with you, he was devastated, he needed to get out"
I nodded, I understood why he needed some time off. I couldn't help but to feel sad, for how I acted, for the way that I left, for the way that I broke his heart all over again.
"So, what are you doing here?" Sylvie asked
"I wanted to talk to him, do you know when is he coming back?" I asked
"No, I've talked to him often, but he's not ready to come back yet, let's just give him the time he needs to process it all" she said.
"Ok I'll do that, but please Sylvie, will you tell me the minute you know when does he plan to come back?" I asked her.
"Yes of course" she said.
I knew that Bass deserved some time alone. After all I was that asked him for that time. And I was fine with him putting himself together. But there was a slight worry inside of me, that when he came back he wouldn't want me anymore.
"So now tell me, how did things went with jim?" Sylvie asked.
"How did you know?" I said.
"Well I believe you wouldn't be here if you haven't break up with him"

I filled Sylvie in all that happened in Chicago, I also filled her in about my feelings for Bass, for Jim, and that's when I realized that I was so so so in love with Bass, I cried and she hugged me.

"I know Bass came to put your life upside down, but that's what real love is honey" she said holding my hand.
"I know" I said nodding, she was so right.

I came to really love and appreciate Sylvie. Everyday for the rest of the week I came by to have some tea with her, to talk about me, about her. We were turning to such good friends.

She was the only close person that I have here right now, Andrea wasn't returning my calls, and I had no one.

Every day I came by to Bass's house, hoping that he was back, and the first thing that I ask Sylvie was
"Is he here yet?"
And Sylvie shook her head.

One day I was at my bed, at a new apartment I had to rent because the apartment I shared with Jim was not available anymore. And I was find with that, starting over in a new place.

I stalked Bass Instagram page everyday. Yes I was a freak. But I wanted to feel close to him.
He uploaded some pictures about the snow, about him skiing. He looked so hot.

And then I saw something that smash me like a wrecking ball. It was a video of Bass and a girl hugging, they looked like they were having fun. She was so pretty.

I saw the video like a thousand times, seeing the way she was looking at him, she obviously wanted him.
I felt jealousy invading my body, like the first time I saw him with Darla.
What if they are having sex?
Oh god I felt nauseous.

Next day I went with Sylvie and show her the video and the pictures with that girl, I couldn't help but to cry again. And that's the way it has been with him, a roller coaster of feelings.

"Just give him the space, Valerie, he needs it, he needs this" she said
"I know, but it's been a week, why hasn't he come home yet?" I asked
"He will be here soon I promise" she said
"What if he likes that girl and stays there with her?"
"Trust me, that's not going to happened, she's probably just a rebound" she said
And I hoped that she was

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