𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐚𝐚'𝐬

𝟞𝟠.

picking up where we left off at

|| 𝐂𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐧 𝐀𝐦𝐢𝐫 𝐂𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐧 || 𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚 . 😣

I ashed my blunt out and blew out a long sigh of frustration, seeing Janaee calling yet again before pressing decline.

After seeing what time it was, I started my car up and tossed my phone in the passengers seat. I sat up and stared out into the road with low eyes, just taking a minor breather and minute to myself before turning the music up as loud as it could go and pulling off.

I teared up hearing the intro of Bryson Tillers Trapsoul album coming on, instantly making me think back to the first date I ever took Janaee on.

•••

"Sexy daddy bae?" 

"Yes ma?" 

"Can I get the aux?" She pouted, looking over at me driving from the passengers seat.

"Don't say I ain't never gave you nothing," I reached over and passed it to her and she plugged it in her phone, smacking her lips.

"Shut up," she pressed play and leaned back in her seat, letting the music voice fill the air and blast through the speakers making me frown.

"You don't need nobody else, and you're putting this all on me." She sung completely off key, closing her eyes and nodding her head while I looked at her with a mug.

I reached over and turned the voulme down, "the fuck you got me listening to?"

"Shhh!" She said turning it back up, "you gon need to listen to this song if you fuck up again."

"Is there a reason why you're saying all this? Can we talk bout it later? I've gotta right my wrongs, with you is where I belong."

She sung louder with her eyes closed, unaware that I was just looking at her smiling and admiring how free she seemed in that moment, not afraid to let her personality show.

I cheesed while shaking my head and sighing, "you lucky I like you."

"Shut up, knowing damn well you like this song."

•••

A fresh set of tears rolled down my face, burning my cheeks as I tried my hardest to push those memories in the back of my mind but I just can't, I just don't understand this situation at all and it's pissing me off cause I feel stupid.

I thought we were happy, I feel like we was finally getting the life we deserved and I been doing everything I possibly can to maintain this lifestyle and keep my family happy but I guess giving her my all wasn't enough for her.

I just can't get over the fact she did what she did with Chief, my bestfriend.. the nigga I came out the dirt with. She knows how close I was to him so that just goes to show how careless she really is and she ain't the person I thought she was.

It ain't shit I can do about it now all I can say is, they both played me good because I never saw this shit coming. All I can really do is take my lick and move on, charge it to the game even though it hurts but it is what it is.