Worries, worries I say, I mean who wouldn't ? Would you? I'm sure you'd worry as much as I, I mean I have too much fun with that three letter word. It causes me so much misery, yet it's pleasurable. It ruined friendship and relationships, yet I can't get away from it. It slowly enveloped into an uncontrollable trajectory chasing me around my whole life. Or Perhaps I should Say, we follow each other. I guess it's an unpleasant game of tag. More so it finds me but I can never find it. Pleasure can be fatal to men, (no I mean literally) it's a dangerous game when it comes to the subject. Playing the sitting duck at home, spanking your monkey 30 times a day. Do you think that's normal? I'd call that obsessive masturbation disorder. (OBD) no just kidding I made that up, well I think I did. Ok, on a serious note. How does one overcome a masturbation addiction. Like seriously! Sex is on Tv, it's in music, it's publicized everywhere. I mean what the fuck, It's horrendous I kid you not! I see ass more than I see smiles at my job. Well I work at a grocery outlet, mainly hussies come trembling down the aisle asking for their dairy free and gluten free products. It's embarrassing, I can't wear sweatpants or shorts when I want. My job allows it but the struggle of fighting the random Boner is on concurring. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of fighting myself, I believe I need a sex therapist.
Let's take a step back for a second, why should I contemplate about getting help. Isn't this normal? I mean, it's not my fault my hormones dance unwillingly. Maybe if I could cut back just a little bit, I'll be fine. My vigorous emotions weigh heavily on me. I'm literally arguing with myself, debating on receiving help or to continue in self destruct. My mind gambling in disarray, for temporary pleasure. Going without sex or masturbation leads to unprecedented stress, even withdrawal. So basically I'm "damned if I do, damned if I don't!"
Too be continued :) next part is going to get interesting 🤪 that is just free writing don't worry I'll go back and fix the errors and differentiate some words and sentences. 🤓
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Sexual Confliction
FantasyA mans want, a mans worry, a mans everything in between. The best of God's creation but also temptation leading a man to the second death. The man struggles immensely to maintain abstinence through vile sin.
