You Make it Possible-Under Re-Write

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"That's why you guys have to wear something different" I say with a teasing smile.

She rolls her eyes at me "I hate you" she says with a small chuckle and goes back to eating.

"I'd like to get you a nice outfit mija it's a special day for all of us, especially you" my mom says looking me in the eye giving me a reassuring smile.

I give her one back and we all go back to eating and having small talk about how everyone has been doing.

I had already decided against telling them about the weekend I was supposed to come home. Nothing bad happened that I know of so I see no reason to worry them.
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After dinner we all sat in the living room enjoying our small talk and watching tv till about 9 when everyone got tired.

I was mostly physically tired from the day, but I wanted to stay up a little longer.

After my parents put Jr to bed and my grandmother went to sleep, Phoebe and I stayed up watching scary movies together.

"I gotta tell you something" she says excitedly.

"What" I ask setting my phone down and giving her my full attention.

"Well... I uh lost IT" she says putting emphasis on the "it"

"Lost what" I ask confused.

She rolls her eyes and huffs. "You know... IT" she says giving me hopeful eyes.

"WHAT" I yell.

She throws a pillow at my face and harshly shushes me.

"Phoebe!" I whisper scream at her. "With who!?"

"David my boyfriend duh!"

Oh, that guy. She has been dating this kid since they started high school. She was a Junior now so I guess 3 years together is okay timing, I just wish she had waited till after high school.

Then it hit me.

"You fucking had sex before I did?" I ask her in a somewhat offended tone. Not towards her but mostly shocked with myself. Ive had crushes sure but as I said before I never gave into them. Never went on a date and never had a boyfriend. It was more of a personal choice since I had so much going on with school and helping take care of the kids. I didn't want to waste my time, I figured I had loads of time to find a relationship when I was at a good point in my life. When I was done with school and more independent, now I feel like if I don't have sex tomorrow the world will end. I mean it may as well. My baby sister did the deed before I even had a first kiss.

She rolls her eyes and turns back to the tv. "Who cares, you always said it was a personal choice for you to not have a relationship" she said matter of fact.

"Yeah I know but babe you're 17? Do you love him?" I ask praying she says no. I don't know what it was about David but he irked me. I of course played nice for my sister but I didn't like the vibe he gave me, even after 3 years with my sister.

"I do" she says giving me a shy smile.

"Does he love you too?" If she was gonna loose it with anyone I hope he at least loved her.

"Yes, he said so" she says with another shy smile.

"Well then sis I'm happy for you, just please god be careful." I say giving her a warning look. "And if mom or dad or god forbid abuelita finds out I'm denying I knew anything." I say with a small laugh.