Hello from Hogwarts Part 1 & 2

Failure

I highly recommend reading this chapter slower. By the time you finish reading, the song should have played in its full length (Hopefully). So just be mindful of that. 

How do you even fathom such an experience? I keep blaming myself, knowing I should've done something different. I should've made a better plan. The distractions swirling around me clouded my vision from the mission. I can't even look myself in the mirror, knowing that my face was the last thing your beautiful eyes saw. Looking up, you drifted into the sky, leaving all of us behind. You gaze down on me now with a clear view of my betrayal, my weakness, and my failure. I'm sorry you were the one to pay for everything I did wrong. I made a promise, and I didn't keep it. Please forgive me.

I blankly stare at the ceiling as the tears stream down the sides of my face, creating puddles of regret.

A mental image resurfaces in my mind as I let out a tiny yelp in pain.

I could never begin to comprehend this image.

His lifeless body, burned into my retinas.

Out of all the images I could have possibly forgotten through my short time here at Hogwarts, this one wouldn't budge.

There is no energy left in my body to pick myself up. I slowly nudge myself to the side. The tears begin to slide over my nose, creating another fresh puddle.

I suddenly feel the bed slump down behind me. A hand appears in my vision as I continue to whimper like a puppy. It pulls my messy hair behind my ear and then proceeded to rest itself at my waist.

There was only silence.

A person is behind me, and yet I have not a care in the world to see who it was. If they stabbed me in the back right now, I would happily greet death with open arms, cause that means I can see him again.

I close my eyes, pretending that it's you comforting me. Your warm hand grips my waist as you sit there, breathing. I can feel your calm heartbeat, your cozy presence, your cheerful smile, enveloping me with your undeniable comfort. I turn my head to look at your eyes.

If only it were that easy.

We were supposed to be lifelong friends.

I guess we can't all be satisfied with the lives we receive.

"I love you so much."

"Now, look at the stars and rest."

"You deserve that."

That is what I said when he died in my arms.

He deserved so much more.

He deserved the life that we had imagined together.

You were never a victim.

I know that now.

When it's my turn to leave this earth, we will meet again. Full of excitement, we will hug tightly to the point where we can barely breathe. I will tell you about my life, and we will laugh together. We will go and play amongst the stars like children, and swim in the deepest of oceans. We will be happy and at peace.

See, Cedric, I've got it all planned out.

I don't need a notebook anymore.

It's all clear to me.

Now be patient, I'll see you later.

With all the love in my heart,

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