Dear Diary

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"Mmm," she smiled, "Jimin asked Jill the same thing earlier," she kissed him again sweetly, "I've missed you."

"I'm sorry work has kept me so busy," he held her close as he looked down at her with big eyes, "Let me make it up to you?"

"You don't have to," she grinned, letting her hands fall to his firm buttocks, "But I won't complain if you feel the need."

They giggled and hugged as everyone filed into the kitchen for dinner, Joss sitting on his lap and letting him shower her with affection. Taking their leave immediately after eating, they passed Jimin and Jill on their way for their night together as well. Joss sighed, happy to finally see a smile on her best friend's face once again, before letting herself be pulled through the door and into the arms of her man.

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Jill smiled wide, watching Joss in her element working the floor, the bar packed to the gills while Kaj and Ronnie helped her pour drinks for patrons and passing waitstaff. She hated to admit that she missed Josh at times like that, when it was busy and his confidence filled everyone with the extra energy they needed to kick the night's ass. The memory of what he had done seeped through, though, making her smile drop as she concentrated on working diligently.

"No you don't," Marilee waved her hand in front of Jill's face, "Tonight's been awesome. I don't know what you're dwelling on, but stop dwelling and put that pretty smile back on your face."

"Just thinking about when to take out the trash," Jill shrugged, smiling as Alice snuck up behind her girlfriend, "Needs to be sorted soon."

"You're thinking about He Who Shall Not Be Named," Alice shook her head, "You always look like you're going to commit a crime when you think on that piece of shit."

"But look!" Marilee giggled, "I do believe your happy pills just walked through the door!"

Jill looked up just as Namjoon and Hoseok walked into the bar, the latter smiling like the sun when he met her eyes. He clapped Namjoon on the back, pointing off to the bar as he spoke in his ear over the music. She watched as Namjoon skipped over to Joss in a silly manner, taking her in a huge hug just before Hoseok's handsome face filled her view.

"Hey, Kitten!" he leaned over the bar for a kiss and sat back down on a stool, "Wanna' grab some food before we go home tonight?"

"You're speaking my love language," she grinned back, his aura infectious, "What were you guys thinking?"

Hoseok shook his head, "Just you and me," he winked, "Joon wants to take Princess stargazing."

"What has you two in Rom-Com Mode tonight?" she asked, finishing the drinks for Alice to take on her tray, "You both seem pretty excited."

"The festival was a success," he grinned widely, "We finished six new contracts today, and have roughly a dozen to confirm by the end of the month."

"Shouldn't Mr. CEO be part of the celebration, then?" she asked, leaning forward.

Hoseok shook his head, "He told us to come and spoil you rotten," he pulled out a sleek rectangle of plastic, "Even gave us his black card. He and the others have to finish up their parts on the contracts from today. They might be home late."

"We should make sure to order food for them for when they come in," Jill nodded her head confidently, "On Jin Daddy's card, of course."

"Of course," Hoseok chuckled. "How long until you can dip out?"

Jill looked around at the tables that has recently vacated, then laughed, "Well, considering I don't see Joon or Joss anywhere, but Mari and Al are giggling and pointing at the bathroom, I'd say now is as good as ever." She turned to Ronnie, confirming he could handle the last of it before turning back to a smiling Hoseok, "Joss has the keys. You ready, then?"

"I was born ready for you, Kitten."

"You're cheesy."

"You love me, though."

Jill smiled dreamily as Hoseok led her out the door, "Every day."

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**little time skip**

"Do you think therapy will ever not suck?" Joss asked, pouting to Jill as she laid over Taehyung's body, "It helps later, but right after I always feel so...raw."

"I know what you mean," Jill sighed as Jin rubbed her back and pulled her closer in his lap, "But at least your nightmares have stopped for the most part."

Joss couldn't argue with that, knowing that she felt more calm and relaxed after sleeping lately, rather than like she had fought in a battle every morning. Both of them lifted their heads as Jeongguk came in, looking a little defeated and already starting to unbutton his shirt for the aftercare they had made a habit to get through feelings after therapy sessions. The girls guided him onto Jin's bed between them, taking off their shirts and leaving their bras on to cuddle close to him, Taehyung and Jin following suit and spooning each of them from behind as they laid their heads on Jeongguk's chest.

Jeongguk let out a shuddering sigh, his emotions still stirring, "Forrest says I'm being unreasonable," he finally let out.

"Why's that?" Jin asked quietly.

"Because I want to move back to Korea," he explained, rubbing Jill's shoulder when he felt her body tense, "Not alone. All of us. I just..." he sighed again, "I don't know...I just don't know what else to do to make myself feel like I'm keeping you two safe. I feel like I'm not doing enough." He put his hand over his eyes, trying to keep himself calm, "I worry constantly. That Shane will come back to the bar, or that he knows where we live." His voice choked up a bit, "I'm more than willing to take a hundred bullets, but I'm afraid I won't be there, or won't be fast enough...that he...he could get to one of you and I couldn't do anything about it."

"Same," Taehyung confessed almost inaudibly, "I feel like we're all constantly on guard. All of us."

"We are," Joss admitted, earning a nod from Jill.

Jin popped his head up from behind Jill, "We should move." He chuckled at the four surprised faces that turned to him, "Not to Korea, but maybe closer to the bar?" he lifted his hand to make his point, "I think it's fair to say that no one is going to be comfortable with our girls going back to their place," he reasoned, "And if not being somewhere fast enough, or Dickbag McGee knowing where we live now is the problem, then the solution is to move."

"We could do it slowly," a light lit in Jeongguk's eyes, "Get the new place, move our stuff over time," he grinned, his body relaxing markedly, "Put the houses on the market after we're settled. We can afford it now."

"More bathrooms," Taehyung added, "I don't know as though more bedrooms are needed, since we all kind of share anyway these days, but more bathrooms and bigger closets."

"I'm getting a dog," Joss made her statement, avoiding Jill's excited smile, "A big fucking german shepard with a kill command." She looked at Jin, "So we'll need a fenced yard."

Jill was in shock. Yes, they had been living with the guys for a few months, after Shane's first attack, but them having their own place was always still an option. The thought of losing the independence they had built for themselves scared her. She was so lost in thought, she hadn't realized all eyes were on her until she felt Joss cup her face.

"You okay, Bean?"

"I'll think about it," Jill nodded her head, "I'm willing to look, if you guys find the perfect place." She grinned, trying to lighten the mood, "But we're getting a little dog, too. Also with a kill command."

"Noted," Jin chuckled hugging her tightly, "I'll call a realtor tonight and have them start up a list." He relaxed back down onto the pillows, kissing Jill's shoulder and whispering in her ear, "It'll be okay. I promise."