All Up In My Head [Completed]

00 Him, Part II

Kinabahan ako bigla. Hindi agad nakapagsalita. Tinignan ko na lang siya hanggang sa makalayo. Doon ko na lang napagtanto ang tsansang sinayang ko. Ngunit hindi naman iyon ang huli naming pagkikita.

I saw her standing by the curb. Hindi ko mapigilang ngumiti. Lalapitan ko sana siya ngunit ang layo ng mga tanaw nito. Parang may pinagdadaanan. Nagulat siya nang makita ako.

“Miss, he’s not worth it," I joked but she didn't answer.

“Didn’t she recognize me?” I wondered.

“Jennie, diba may klase kayo sa CASS building?" tanong ko sa isa ko pang pinsan habang kumakain kami sa kanilang bahay. "May kilala ka bang babaeng ganito kaliit na may bangs tapos medyo singkit?” I described her, adding a little details, hoping that she knows her. Baka nga magkaklase sila. Wouldn't it be weird to flirt with a freshman? Sana hindi first year.

Jennie rolled her eyes at me. “Kuya, kung may kilala akong gano’n, hindi ko ire-reto sa’yo.”

“Sungit nito. Paano ka natatagalan ni Chi?” Natatawa kong sabi.

She acted like she's about to stab me with a fork. Lumakas lalo ang tawa ko. Ang sarap talaga asarin nito.

“Paabot nga niyan," Wren said, the youngest among the cousins and the most silent.

Ngumisi ako. “Say the magic word first, Wren. It starts with letter P.”

She darted her eyes on me. “Pakibilisan.”

These kids are so unaffectionate.

Wala naman akong nakuhang sagot tungkol sa babaeng iyon. Only Jennie's sermon because I lost her umbrella. Life went on. After the vacation, it was my last year in the university. But I thought there's always a time to play.

I flirted with a lot of girls. Crush ko lang naman iyong babae. Too bad I don't know even her name. Kaya pinatulan ko na lang ang ni-reto sa'kin ni Gab, si Nadia.

We were doing stuff inside the silence of the library. Hindi ko maipagkaila na nai-excite ako. I was kissing Nadia and groping her big mounds. I was getting a hard on. Lalo na at minasahe nito ang akin. But then I heard a loud sound.

“Wait, Nadia...” bulong ko.

“What?” naiinip nitong sabi.

Nahigip ko ang tao sa kabilang isle. Nawala tuloy ako sa focus.

“Wala. Let’s just go. May tatapusin pa ‘ko.”

Ngunit nang bumaba kami, nakita ko ulit siya. That eyes, still the same intensity. That's when I felt the need to know her more. I started going to the libraries for no reason at all. Hindi naman kasi ako palabasa ng libro. Isa pa, I already bought the books that I need for this sem. My only reason was to get closer to her. I'd do anything to get her attention.

“Alam mo, Ewan. Nasaktan na nang sobra ‘yang kaibagan ko. Kaya kung di ka seryoso sa kanya, lubayan mo na.” It was Shane's warning that woke me up.

At first, everything was a little hazy with me. Lila. She always make me wonder. Everyday, every night, she's all up in my head. Nakakabaliw. Nakakasira ng utak. Akala ko gusto ko lang. Ngunit sa tuwing nandyan siya, hindi ko mapigilang naisin ang kanyang mailap na mga ngiti.

“Shane, I’m serious. I really like Lila. There’s no other words for this.”

“Then, bigyan mo siya ng oras. She’s been through a lot. Alam kong mabuti kang tao pero kung katulad ka lang niyong gago niyang ex—