Who Are You? "Her Name"

Simula

Simula.

Ocean

"Avyreil, saan ka na naman pupunta?" tanong ko sa kakambal ko.

"Come on Ivy, I just want to meet Vaughn." habang dahan dahan na naglalakad papuntang gate.

Yes tumatakas na naman siya para makita ang boyfriend niya.

"Ano ka ba baka pagalitan ka naman niyan." pangangaral ko.

"Oh sissy I have you remember?" right, I always end up being Avyreil.

"Mag-ingat ka, text me if you need me, okay?" final na sagot ko. Tumango lang siya bago tuluyang tumakbo palayo ng bahay.

That's my twin, Avyreil Jin Lagasca. She's a party girl while I'm not. You know why?

Simple, I end up being Avyreil Jin when she's not around, she's always not around by the way. And she's Ivygale when she's out.

Just like that, I'm her shadow.

In the eyes of my family, specially my parents, Ivygale was the worst one, while Avyreil was the you know soft one, but the truth is....

Humiga na lang ako sa kama ni Avy. At maghihintay kay Avy hanggang anong oras niya maisipang umuwi.

That's my routine from the very beginning of my life.

Minsan naisip ko did my mom or dad really don't recognize whose Avy and Ivy?

We have a different attitude, same feature but still we have our differences. Hindi man lang ba napansin yun nila Mommy? Kahit hindi na si Dad basta si Mom.

Ang hirap lagi magpanggap na Avy lalo na magkaiba kami ng ugali pero now I choose to show who I am, I mean the soft side of me. Kaya siguro mas pinapaburan nila si Avy kasi akala nila ako si Avy.

Tsk.

Ginagawa ko lang to kasi ayaw kong napapagalitan ang kakambal ko. I always want her to be happy. At ayaw kong nagagalit siya sakin.

We always end up switching each other identity.

Inaantok na ako pero wala parin siya.
Nagulat ako ng may kumatok.

"Avy!" small voice from outside the door. I know it's Mom.

Everytime she call me Avy I always ending up comforting myself and convincing myself that she call me by my name.

"Yes po?" pinagbuksan ko siya ng pinto. Ngumiti siya sakin.

"Dinalhan kita ng gatas." napatingin ako sa isang basong gatas na dala niya. Inabot niya yun sakin kaya kinuha ko.

"Thank you po." pumasok kami sa kwarto ni Avy, umupo lang ako sa kama kaya tumabi lang siya sakin.

She hug me from the side.

Gusto kong matuwa pero mas nangingibabaw ang lungkot sakin.

I want to feel this always as who I am.

Pero gaya nga ng sabi ko, in their eyes, I'm the worst one.

"Avy" mahinang tawag sakin ni Mommy. Kaya bahagya ko siyang nilingon.

"Po?"

"Can I sleep here?" tatango na sana ako ng may maalala ako. Tumikhim ako.

"Ah Mom, hindi ka ba hahanapin ni Dad?" kailangan kong magdahilan.

"Hindi nag paalam ako sakanyan, I just want to sleep beside you. I miss you baby". Natigilan ako bigla. Avy....

"May usapan po kasi kami ni Avy na magmomovie marathon ngayon." iniwas ko ang paningin ko sakanya.