A pattern of intense and unstable relationships with family, friends, and loved ones, often swinging from extreme closeness and love (idealization) to extreme dislike or anger (devaluation).
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I love you.
I hate you.
I miss you.
I don't want to be around you.
I need you.
I don't need anyone.
I want to be left alone.
Please don't leave me alone.
Have you ever gone back and forth between loving and hating someone? Wanting to be around them all the time, and suddenly wanting nothing to do with them?
I've experienced that with nearly every person in my life. Friend, family, classmates, coworkers, cast members... going from feeling an intense amount of love for them, to suddenly feeling suffocated by their presence.
And it's rarely their fault. They didn't change; they didn't do something to upset me. My feelings just changed, and I would become extremely bothered by them.
It wasn't their fault.
Was it mine?
I didn't want my feelings to abruptly change. But... maybe I did? My head hurts.
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