Once i clean up Luke's nose mess, i turn to look at the other boys.
I say " What happened? "
Michael says " Well you see. Uhmm there was this board thing. And i didnt know he was coming and i threw it. And it happened so fast. "
I start laughing.
I say " Soo you mean to tell me you hit him in the face with something you dont even know what it is? "
Michael says " Well if you put it that way then yeah."
I say " Im putting it that way. "
Calum says " What are you doing back anyways? "
I say " Oh me and Ashton are back together. But im leaving in the morning. "
Luke says " What why? "
I say " I got one of the greatest job offers. Im going back to america to be a actor for nickolodeon. "
Luke says " We just got you back and your leaving again? "
I say " Luke its not something i can turn down! "
He says "Your so selfish. "
He shakes his head and walks out of the room.
I sigh and turn to look at the boys.
I say " Can i do something right for once? And not fuck it up? "
I turn on my heels and run after Luke. I see him walking down the hallway.
" Luke stop. Please. Im sorry. I try to make you guys happy but you have to think of me to. I understand that i fuck everything up. But i want this. This is something i enjoy. This is the thing i wanna do. Just like you being in your band means so much, well this is my band to me. "
He turns to look at me.
He says " Thats where your wrong. You didnt even put thought into this. Its not something your going to enjoy."
I say " No Luke, your wrong. I wanna be famous. By myself. Not because of you guys, not because of my brothers band. Because of me and what i do. I wanna have my own little fanbase i wanna be able to win awards. I wanna be able to do something with my life thats a adventure. Acting? Yeah thats an adventure. I think ill enjoy it. And maybe your right i wont like it. But i can give it a fucking try."
He shakes his head and rolls his eyes.
He says " I thought you were happy here. With us. I thought you had everything you could of ever wanted. You know someone would pay millions of dollers just to be in your place for a day. How could you be that way and leave again. do you know what you already put Ashton through? His appendix sergury was a appendix surgery it was a attempt of suicide. He didnt tell you that though did he. "
I look down at my feet. I cant put Ashton through that again. Why didnt he tell me it was that bad?I thought he trusted me. I turn with tears forming in my eyes and go back into the boys room.Ashton tries to hug me. I push him off and look at him with tears spilling out of my eyes.
I say " Why didnt you tell me. "
He says " Cailtyn calm down. Tell you what. "
I say " Your little appendix surgery. How long where you in there? Two weeks at the most? What the hell did you do to your self? "
He looks down at his feet.
I say " Look at me Ashton and answer me. "
He says " I took pills Caitlyn okay? "
I say "Because of me. God why cant i fucking do something right for once. "
I grab my red hair and scrunch it up as i cry. I feel arms go around my waist.
I say " Ashton get off of me. "
i wiggle out of his grip. I look at him.
I say " Im not leaving you again. It cant happen. Whats to say you do it again. And sucseed. then what? Iknow its my fault. Because i wasnt there to support you through it. Or becuse i left you again. Once you got me back. Im fucking stupid for thinking i should of left. Im sorry. "
I wrap my arms around him and pull him in. i hug him tight. He wraps his arms around me completing the hug. I set my forhead on his chest and sigh.
He says " Hey, dont blame yourself. "
I say " But i am. You dont understand. "
He says "So your telling me you didnt try at all ?"
I say " I never said that."
He says " How many times? "
I say ' The major ones, 2. The last time one more pill. It would of ended it. "
He says " See, i think we need each other. Come on tour with me. Please? "
I say " Of course. And i shall plan our wedding as well. "
He smiles and kisses me.
He says " Now go find Luke and mkae up with him okay? He needs you. "
I nod and leave finding Luke.
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" Luke. Im not going anywhere. I cant leave you guys like this. I couldnt possibley leave with you hating me. And putting Ashton through that again. Or Calum. Oh and Michael. You all need me. Im not going leave a broken band behind. I just cant. "
He turns to look at me.
I say " And im sorry that i didnt even think about what i said. Or what i was doing. Your right. I was being selfish. Could you please even forgive me? "
He says " How could i leave a broken girl behind? "
I walk up to him and hug him. I hear people snap pictures and awe. I just dont care right now. I pull back and look him in the eyes.
I say "Thank you Luke. "
He nods and smiles. I giggle and we walk back to the hotel room.
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