Falling slowly then all at once ( 5SOS & Ashton Irwin )

Chapter 54

I listen to 5 seconds of summer's new song that Ashton said was about me. 

Six weeks since I've been away
And now you're sayin' everything has changed
And I'm afraid that I might be losing you
And every night that we spend alone
It kills me thinking of you on your own
And I wish I was back home next to you

Oh, everyday
You feel a little bit further away
And I don't know what to say

Are we wasting time
Talking on a broken line?
Telling you I haven't seen your face in ages
I feel like we're as close as strangers
Won't give up
Even though it hurts so much
Every night I'm losing you in a thousand faces
Now it feels we're as close as strangers

Late night calls and another text
Is this as good as we're gonna get?
Another timezone taking me away from you
Living dreams in fluorescent lights
While you and I are running out of time
But you know that I'll always wait for you

Oh, everyday
You feel a little bit further away
And I don't know what to say

Are we wasting time
Talking on a broken line?
Telling you I haven't seen your face in ages
I feel like we're as close as strangers
Won't give up
Even though it hurts so much
Every night I'm losing you in a thousand faces
Now it feels we're as close as strangers

On the phone
I can tell that you wanna move on
Through the tears
I can hear that I shouldn't have gone
Every day gets harder to stay away from you
So tell me...

Are we wasting time
Talking on a broken line?
Telling you I haven't seen your face in ages
I feel like we're as close as strangers

Wasting time
Talking on a broken line
Telling you I haven't seen your face in ages
I feel like we're as close as strangers
Won't give up
Even though it hurts so much
Every night I'm losing you in a thousand faces
Now it feels we're as close as strangers

Six months since I went away
And I know everything has changed
But tomorrow I'll be coming back to you

I look at Elizabeth after explaining my whole life story and listening to the song. She stares at me. 

She says " You lied to me? "

I say " I moved here to get away from everything. All of that. Im sorry. I trust you i really do but i just didnt want any memory of it until i was forced into it. "

She says " In all honesty i think i would have did the same thing if i were you. "

My phone starts vibrating. I answer it knowing it was Ashton.

C- Caitlyn A-Ashton

C- Ashton, im sorry.

A-  I dont wanna talk about this. 

C- Then why did you call? you know i need to talk to you about it.

A- Because i dont care what your reason is. I love you Caitlyn. You drive me crazy, we fight, and everything else that could happen but i still need you in my life. Your my anchor and without you my life would be a living hell. Your absolutly the one i wanna marry and you mean so much to me. So if you would do me the honor of packing up and coming with me, we can get married and do whatever you want. So, Caitlyn, will you leave with me? 

C- Oh my gosh Ash. Thats so sweet. Of course i will. We can live and have a happy life. 

A- You know that means so much to me because after all this time you still love me and trust me. 

C- Well, i mean we both have changed. Things are gonna be a little different. We just have to wait and see. 

A- I love you Caitlyn. 

C- I love you to Ashton. 

A- I think i love you to damn much.

C- Yeah me to. Oh yeah i hate to bring down the mood but i gotta tell you something.

A- What is it? 

C- I got into old habbits and broke our promise again. 

A- Me to. Dont worry

C- So, we can start over. Help each other.

A- We can bring each other up to what we had. Redo everything. Make new promises and have a new start.

C- I think i would like that.

A- Yeah me to, do you think we can do it?

C- Im not saying we cant. but its gonna be different than what we had. People change.

A- Im very aware of that.

C- You can come over if you want to.

A- Where do you live?

C- I live in the hotel down the street from the bar. Room 504. You gotta give me a bit because im at a friends house and then ill be there.

A- So you made new friends?

C- Well, sort of. I knew her before.

A- I will be there around 11 tonight. That give me some time to talk with the boys and to do other stuff and for you to get home.

C- Yeah sounds great. Ill see you then.

A- Can you order some food.

C- Yeah pizza okay?

A- Yeah soudns great. I love you Caitlyn

C- I love you to Ashton.

I hang up the phone and look at Elizabeth. I smile and shake my head. She smiles at me and rolls her eyes.

I say " Well, were gonna try again i guess. Im not sure why it makes me so happy to know i still have him. "

She says " Its called love you goof. "

I say " I would love for you to meet them one day. Even though you hate them. "

She says " I dont hate them. Not that i know of. I just dont like there music. I would be more than happy to meet them. "

I say " Awesome. Ill talk to Ashton about you meeting them and stuff. "

She says " Cool you want a ride home? "

I say " Yeah if you dont mind. "

She says " I dont. "

We both nod and we go out to the car. We get in and head to my hotel, that i call home.