If Only

Twelve

Heaven

I sat in the infamous place I call a "room," aka the recliner in the living room, while I listened to my teacher teach. I was approved to be hospital home bound which means that I dont have to go to school but a teacher has to come to the house twice a week to go over different subjects of school work. On the off days, I have someone from each of my classes facetime me so I can listen in on what is going on in each class.

Other than that, I have Raymond who has resulted in strictly calling or facetiming me until him and Kaitlyn get back right. I'm definitely okay with that I just enjoy his company whenever I can get it. Soooo, instead of him waiting on me hand and foot, I invite Zion over.

Zion is just... I don't know what to call it. I know once upon a time, he used to have a crush on me. Now, it just feels weird. He doesn't do the things he used to. He dang sure isn't as corny as he once was before we got into the wreck. I don't know what I did. I like to believe that I am a pretty decent friend.

"Heaven, that's all for today. Do you have anymore questions?" Mrs. Weiland asked pulling me out of my thoughts about my two boys.

"No ma'am. I think I understand everything" I said causing her to began to pack her things up.

"I'll see you Thursday. If you have any problems doing your work, make sure to send me an email" I nodded. We said our goodbyes and she left.

Like clockwork, my Gigi was bringing me my afternoon medicine and lunch.

"How you feeling?"

"I'm okay. I will be even better when I can just go pee by myself. I just wanna walk" I said pouting. It is very saddening to be in one room all day long. It is very restricting. There was only so much tv I can watch without getting bored with it. I just watch tv, sleep, and take my medicine on a constant rotation.

One might want someone catering to their every need, but I don't. Not like this at least. I don't want anyone that has to literally semi-carry me to the bathroom. It simply sucks.

"Have you been doing the lil movements that your physical therapist said to do?"

"Yes. Wiggle my toes and wiggle my fingers to make sure they are there?" I mumbled swallowing the pills, chasing them with water. I hated taking big pills and these were huge.

"Mhmm. Where's my other grandson?"

"He is at school. He aint really been coming over here like he used to when I first got home. You know he got a baby on the way?"

"Yeah.." she said in a sigh. "He came to the house yesterday to bring me some lunch from the deli" I swear.. This lady love her some Raymond. "He told me that it was a total accident but he taking full responsibility cause you know, but i'm happy he at least own up to it" she said causing me to nod my head, agreeing.

"I'll be a great god mom" she playfully rolled her eyes before fanning me off.

"Chile, anyways. I'm finna finish my movie. It's so good and cheesy" she said leaving the room. I started eating my lunch which consisted of a chicken salad croissant, grapes, and strawberries.

Raymond

"So, how are you going to tell your parents?" Kaitlyn asked laying her head on me. We were chillin at my house in my room. I was minding my business enjoying the fuck out this crazy ass show, Greenleaf. She always wanna ask questions when i'm the most contempt and comfortable.

"I don't know" I mumbled. I really don't. My parents are home and have been for two weeks. They've been working out of their main office here. I mean that's good and bad. Good because my parents are actually home, but bad because Kaitlyn thinks I should tell them that she is pregnant.