Hyo-rin: Let's go change~
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~Now I'm just sitting on a chair infront of his desk in his office that has dim lights~
"Man with vibe huh? Lol."
"My arm.. Is still bleeding everywhere, Idk why he said "office" Literally everyone saw the situation I was in"
~Then I heard the door open~
".Oh god.. Ugh what does he want now??"
~He came in and closed the door after himself~
~He slowly approached me and stopped infront of me as I avoided his eye contact~
GD: What happened to your left arm?
Y/n: Nothing. What do you want?
GD: Let me see your arm
~He tried to reach for it but I put my arm away~
"I don't have time for the stupid reaction he'll give"
GD: Y/n?
~He widened his eyes in slight shock when I disobeyed~
~I annoyedly took out my arm~
Y/n: Ugh! I accidentally cut myself! That's it!
GD: It's a big cut, What did you do?
Y/n: I was training with the blade and I cut myself by accident, Not on purpose
GD: I told you not to use weapons while training alone
~I rolled my eyes~
"Whatever"
GD: Stay here
Y/n: Huh?
~He left the room and after 3 minutes, he came back with a box of surgical threads and needles~
"What is he doing?"
~He brough his chair and sat right next to me, holding my arm~
GD: It will hurt a little
Y/n: Tch it doesn't even hurt like that
GD: Hm good
~He takes out the needle and thread and prepares it as I look at him~
Y/n: You know this stuff huh?
GD: Yup I do
"He talks like he forgot about yesterday, Tch"
GD: Are you ready?
~I rolled my eyes and looked the other way in annoyance as he put the needle in my skin making me blink my eyes a couple of times, it was a little unexpected~
~He put it in the second time but for some reason it made me flinch a little, which made him look at me~
GD: It hurts?
Y/n: *Irritated* N-no, Just get it over with!
~He puts it in the third time and I grab on the chair tight with my other hand~
"Why is this so annoying?? It didn't hurt at all earlier!"
~I tightly closed my eyes waiting for him to put it in again but he stopped~
~With a really unexpected and sudden move, he pulled me very quickly and caged me in inside his arms~
Y/n: What are you doing?!-
GD: Don't move, I'm concentrating
Y/n: Tf??
GD: Just chill, a slight mistake will make a damage, you don't want your arm ripped do you?
Y/n: Hmph
"Great now I'm just laying on him"
~I sighed and tried to not think about the position I'm in right now~
"This is so stupid."
~He was soo close that I could feel his breathing over me and how his chest inhaled and exhaled behind me~
GD: You feel pain Y/n Cuz you're a human. You have feelings
Y/n: Yeah right. *unamused*
GD: Yesterday you felt it too
~When he said that, I tried to get up but his arm grip on me didn't let~
GD: One more move and it'll get bad
Y/n: Just do it quick and let me go!
GD: You feel uneasy about yesterday, makes you hate me
Y/n: I don't give a fuck.
GD: You're a human Y/n, what's haunting you makes you feel like you're not
"Why is he talking like this?. He wants to make me look stupid or what?"
~I gaze at my arm infornt of me in despondent, watching him work on it as I feel emptiness covering my whole body~
Y/n: Human you say huh?. I "was" a human. But you-.
"What is this now?. What are we talking about?.. why are we talking about this?. I don't feel good right now."
Y/n: No. I'm not a human Ji-yong. What heart or life do I have to make me a human? But.. is it my fault?. I did that to myself? Or people around made me? These boys made me?. Or You made me?.. or my dad-
"The past? suddenly I'm about to remember things. Oh no please."
GD: Why do you think what you are right now is bad?
~He asked while still carefully stitching arm~
Y/n: Bad?... bad is not my actions, bad is me..
"I feel weird... why am I feeling like this right now?.."
Y/n: ...My past-
~Before I even think about anything else, I bit my lips and just turned my head around, hiding it in his shirt~
GD: ?
~He understood what happened...~
"I.. cried.. ."
"I can never hide anything from him. I just can't let him know this one thing. about Rose.. I can't."
"My past.. it never lets me rest. Why am I hurt right now?.. why do I feel this?. I should not feel it. How am I feeling it??."
GD: It's done.
~I couldn't even listen or think anymore, I'm just having my face buried in his abdomen with ...tears..~
"I don't want him to see me like this. But I can't hold it.. Even after all what happened. I just can't forget about these boys. About my past.. and. . The person I am now.."
~He's gently caressing my head as I shut my mouth and quietly let it all out..~
GD: Like I said. You have feelings too Y/n, It's okay to feel~
"S-s..shut up.. you liar. You just want me to feel okay right now, you are the one who turned me into this monster!... You threw my emotions away...!"
"But still. I can't thank you enough.. for how you cared and what you helped me understand.. showing me the real world.."
"You can NEVER learn without pain~"
"That's what I always told myself when I went through it..."
"But!. I will never rest until I get my revenge and make him proud of me!"
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To Be Continued~~
Chapter 25
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