Everything has gone awry
Feeling a disconnect
Slowly
In a world where everyone seems so
Perfect
Can't form the bond I was meant to form
Can't tie the ties holding me
To a life I love
Because I don't love it
Am I even human?
Sure, not loving your life
Is something that happens, but is it normal
Not to feel
A single connection
With anyone?
Everyone already has friends that aren't me
Someone of higher priority
And there's no one free
As far as I can see
Not that I want anyone
See, the thing about
This lack of connection
Is that it works both ways
I just want to be alone
But I suppose we always want
What we can't have
Because I am never alone
Surrounded by a family trying to change me
But I also can't have privacy
There is no place to cry
Crying is for the weak
But I want to cry
Cry for lost connections
Cry for lost friends
Cry for relationships
That have come to an end
Do. Not. Cry.
Don't cry.
Don't cry.
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
Now I don't feel anything
At least, not in terms of friendship
Out of place here
I don't belong
Everything I say and do is wrong
It's almost like
I'm supposed to be somewhere else
Like the universe is telling me
It isn't right
Like I am being pulled
Away from my current life
I belong there
Not here
Where many a night
I want to break down in tears
Filled with the fear
Of what is happening to me
What have I become?
I am supposed to be strong
I must put up my shield
My mask
So no one knows
What I know:
I don't fit in
And I never will
Because this place isn't mine
Never satisfied with what I do
Always feeling like I've done nothing
With this precious life I've been given
And in the place I'm supposed to be
I can fulfill that need
My dream I can feed
Some may see it as greed
But if I don't
I will bleed
Everything crashing down around
Me until I too
Crumble
And this must be the cause of the disconnect
Not even speaking in the same dialect
So I need to go now
To the place I feel most at home
Where I can find something new
Wherever I may roam
It's all I can think about
A fresh start
I wouldn't have all these
Painful memories
Washing me away
Both the good and the bad
Memories of great friendships I've lost
Memories of dumb things I did with a cost
Memories of people I've crossed
Memories of hurt I've tried to toss
Instead bottled up inside
Eating me away
I need to start anew
Create a new life
For myself
A whole different person
It's all I ever think about
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Fall of Magic Bonuses
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