LET GO (BTS SONG SERIES #1)

LET GO 9

"He's my half brother."

Napatitig ako kay Matt nang sabihin niya 'yon. I was expecting him to say that it was a joke, since he never told me that he has siblings— well, I didn't ask at all. When I heard him sighed, it was a sign that he was telling me the truth.

Umawang ang labi ko sa gulat at pagkabigla. Saglit na sumagi sa isip ko ang itsura ng Miguel na 'yon. Kaya pala familiar ang mukha niya. But I could say na hindi siya ganoong kamukha ni Matt, kung tutuusin ay malayong malayo sila. Matt's features were so clean and pure, he has this mixed aura na mukha siyang masungit, at the same time— an intelligent one. While that guy— who happened to be his half brother looks like an asshole. Wala na akong iba pang maieexplain dahil gago siya. Yun na 'yon.

"H-How is that possible?" nalilitong tanong ko. May mga ideya na sa isip ko but I can't name it, I can't claim it.

Instead of answering my question, Matt stopped moving that made me stop too. He cleared his throat and held my hand. Wala na akong nagawa nang hilahin niya ako paalis. I also heard Ryle calling us but I already don't have the chance to look at him. Hila-hila ako ni Matt hanggang sa labas ng hotel, and I just realized na nasa kabilang part na kami n'on. Sa harap namin ay ang malaking swimming pool.

Hinila ulit ako si Matt at pinaupo sa isang beach chair, yun bang ginagamit kapag nagsa-sunbathing. Kahit hirap ay umupo ako d'on at hinintay siyang makaupo rin sa isa pang upuan na katabi ng inuupuan ko. He looked at the swimming pool, like he was watching something there while I'm here, looking at him and waiting for him to speak up.

I know him already. When he wants to tell me something, hihilahin niya ako sa lugar na ako lang rin ang makakarinig. Just like the late night talks.

"He's my half brother," ulit na naman niya, pero sa pagkakataong 'yon ay umigting ang panga niya. He looks so mad.

"Just like the other cases, he's my dad's child from other woman."

Matunog ang buntong hininga niya nang sabihin 'yon. It seems like he's really having a hard time to share this kind of story— at nakokonsensya ako na nagtanong pa ako.

Napabuntong hininga ako. "You know, it's fine. 'Wag nalang natin siyang pag-usapan," pagpapakalma ko sakaniya.

Nakikita ko sa kanya ang magkahalong galit at hirap, at sa lagay na 'yon, I know he's not ready to speak up. Gaga ka kasi Kiara!

Umiling siya sa'kin at bumuntong hininga. Hanggang sa pagkakataong 'yon ay hindi niya ako nililingon. He was just staring somewhere, ganito kahirap sakaniya mag-share ng kwento ng family nila. At hindi ko pa man nalalaman ang buong istorya ay nalulungkot na ako for him. I never experienced having that kind of family, and I'm really lucky and blessed na wala akong--- half-siblings.

Because that only means one thing... Tulad ng sabi niya, anak sa ibang babae, sa ibang tao.

"I also want you to know," aniya at bumuntong hininga ulit. Hindi na ako sumagot, dahil aaminin ko na gusto ko ring malaman ang history nila.

"He is dad's child from other woman, but he's older than me."

Umawang ang labi ko sa pagkabigla. Lalo pang umawang ang labi ko nang matawa siya, pero mapait ang tawang 'yon. Older than him?

"Wait— What do you mean?" nalilitong tanong ko. Anong ibig sabihin 'non?

"You mean, nakabuntis na ang d-daddy mo ng iba bago mabuntis mommy mo?" paniniguro ko nang hindi siya makasagot.

Nagulat ako nang takpan niya ang buong mukha niya gamit ang dalawang palad niya. Parang yun ang naging paraan niya para pakalmahin ang sarili.

"Sorry—"