Blood And Beverage

𝙁𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙁𝙖𝙡𝙡

Always laughing through my tears
How long has this been going on-
Months or maybe years?
They say that the kindest of people has the saddest of smiles
But my laughter never changes who I am, I'm so vile.
How long has this been going on?
I'm so tired of pretending, afraid of being left alone.

I'm so tired of pretending someone I'm not.
Hell on Earth, please
let me rot.
I don't even know myself anymore.
My facade portrays the trait that you all adore.
I just want to breath;
My raw self unsheathed-
I want to laugh genuinely for once.
I want to wake up from this trance.
All I want is another chance-
To live and not just waste my breaths.

I'm so tired, so tired of it all.
So afraid thinking of the final fall.
So devastated that I'm might be the outcast, once and for all.
I'll just keep waiting for my final fall.

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