Dorm Room 30 (Frat Boy Niall)

Hangover Coffee

I had woken up with a killer headache. Probably thanks to both the alcohol and drama if I'm being completely honest with you. I had definitely regretted some of my choices last night, and I guess the only question was. Which ones did I regret? But that's beside the point. What I needed now was food and water and possibly time away from everyone. I got up and got dressed in some casual clothes before heading downstairs; trying my best to avoid Cassidy at all costs. I guess everyone was still asleep cause I had managed to sneak out without anyone stopping me. As I was walking toward the quad my phone had buzzed in my pocket. 

Good Morning :) -C

It is anything but good...lol -M

Got a headache too? -C

yep. in need of coffee...want to join me? -M

I would love to. meet you in the quad? -C 

Sounds good. -M

After my short conversation with Carter through text I continued walking, the morning air felt brisk and cool against my skin and it felt like something I needed to sober up. Since I had gotten to the quad before Carter I sat down on the grass and leaned against a tree; closing my eyes and calming breathing in. This was the first time I felt truly relaxed since I had gotten to college, and I missed it sincerely....this feeling of calmness. The feeling didn't last long though, as my mind began to wander to what had happened. Shots with Gabby, Delilah's drink, Carter and I kissed...holy shit Carter and I kissed. My eyes shot open and my left hand flew to my lips, the tips of my fingers running over my lips as my mind tried to remember the feeling of his lips on mine. I closed my eyes once more and willed my mind to go back in time to that memory, but before it could successfully go back I was being brought back to reality. I opened my eyes and my eyes met Carters kind brown ones, a smile broke out across my face and a nervous sigh left my lips. 

"hey you." I let out a slight laugh

Carter smiled and waved, "hey gorgeous." my heart skipped a beat and began to get up off the ground. 

Carter extended his hand out for me and helped to pull me up. Once off the ground he pulled me into a hug and I couldn't help but bury my face into his shirt; drinking up his scent.

"Ready for coffee?" he mumbled into my hair.

I nodded my head and pulled away from the hug, "definitely!" 

We walked for a bit before finally reaching the on campus cafe, we chatted here and there but there were a few times where we fell into this awkward silence. I couldn't help but think it was because of the very large elephant in the room...the kiss.

We sat down at a small table and sipped on our coffee in silence for a moment or two. I glanced over at Carter and watched as he stared off into the distance. Trying to figure out what he was thinking but his facial expression remained unmoving. I had to cut through the silence it was becoming uncomfortable. 

"I'm sorry." I blurted out

Carters focus was brought back to me and he seemed taken abackt, "sorry? for what?" he asked 

"I am faintly remembering that I basically threw myself at you before the fight..." I nervously replied with an awkward smile on face.

Carter let out a small scoff and his eyes flicked over too mine, "you didn't throw yourself at me Mads...we kissed, and you just took me by surprise is all. no need for an apology."

Carter got up from his chair and motioned for me to follow him. I grabbed my coffee from the table top and followed him. back to walking we go!  As we walked in silence my heart raced at the thought of what Carter had to say...I finished up my coffee and threw the cup away in a recycle bin we passed, Carter did the same. I let out a nervous sigh and fiddled with my fingers for a second before Carter cleared his throat. 

He looked down at me and smiled, "god you're adorable.."

I could feel my cheeks heat up and I smiled back sheepishly, "haha thank you." 

Carter turned his head back to what was in front of us, "Do you regret kissing me?" he questioned 

My eyes widened and I stopped in my tracks causing Carter to follow suit. 

"Carter no, I don't regret kissing you!" I replied in a panic. 

I looked up at him with wide eyes, "I really liked kissing you actually...it was just surprising for myself...the kiss you know. "

I could tell he felt bad for asking and before I could keep rambling he lifted his hand and moved a stray piece of hair away from my face, then bent down and placed a small kiss on my cheek. I was taken by surprise, but this pleasant feeling overcame me. The same feeling i'm sure I felt last night when we first kissed...In an attempt to quell the panicked feeling I had form before I brought my hand up to the nape of his neck and pulled him close to me. Our noses almost touching, and our lips only centimeters away from each others. My eyes lingered from his lips to his eyes and that's when I decided...I wanted this...I wanted to kiss him...and I don't know why I was feeling so much anxiety over it before. My lips parted and he took it as a cue to close the space between us, the kiss was soft and gentle. A feeling a pure bliss shot up my spine and I let myself melt into the kiss, and as we kissed Carter snaked one arm around me and tangled the other in my hair. We did this for a moment more before I pulled away gently and smiled like an idiot, "well that was certainly unexpected..." I breathed out.

Carter smiled in reply and shook his head, "no it wasn't...we both wanted that." he replied 

He was right! There was nothing that felt wrong about our kiss, but I couldn't help but feel a slight guilt. Niall was the reason why, but thats because there is no closure between the two of us. He had no idea I never did what he thought I had, but I never reached out to him either. 

We needed to end this. We both needed closure. For both of us to be able to move on with other people. 

I have to extend the olive branch, but the question is...would he take it?