a home

new home

~Cora~

When the car stopped I found myself infront of an old house, the paint on the walls was already coming down and the door looked dirty.

{The house}

When we rung the doorbell a woman in her early fifties opened the door and told us to come inside. She was going to be my foster mom. I could tell that she was drinking, the smell was terrible. It reminded me of my dad, I hated it...
My room wasn't too bad it had a bed and a closet but it was dirty, very dirty. The first thing I did after the people downstairs finished the paperwork was clean my room, in the end it was actually pretty good. Ofcourse it was still messy but I stuck pictures to the walls to cover up paint splashes.

{Cora's room}

I sat down to think, it was all alot to digest. I checked my phone and thank god they had wifi I scrolled through YouTube. I saw somthing in my recommendations, I love music. It's always been my escape. It was a song from some guy called NF. I played it and the music just rushed over me and I hade goosebumps all over my body

[lost in the moment]

This may be the last sunset I'll see
So I'll take it in, I'll take it in
This may be the last air that I'll breathe
I'll breathe it in, I'll breathe it in

I heard that pictures don't change
Just the people inside of 'em do
Whoever told you that life would be easy
I promise that person was lyin' to you
You got a problem with followin' through
That's why I got a problem with followin' you
You keep lookin' at me like this problem is new
But we've been here before, what you tryin' to do?
Don't talk to me like I don't know what you feeling
'Cause I was there with you back in the beginning
Quit looking away when I talk, let me finish
I'm tryna be honest, you're tryna forget me, ugh
What's wrong with you, hey?
I know that you got a lot on your plate
You keep telling me I should get out of your way
But I can't see how you gon' lie to my face
Don't tell me you fine 'cause I know that you not so don't even try
And what we gon' live for in this life full of pain
'Til we're eighty and one day we'll get up and say we regretted our lives
That's where we going
Do not pretend like you don't even notice
Funny thing is that you already know it
I'm starting to think that you like how I feel so be lost in the moment

Lost, lost in the moment
Lost in the moment, lost in the moment
And get lost, lost in the moment
Lost in the moment, lost in the moment

Yeah, they told us that time flies, didn't know what it means
Now I feel like we just running around tryna
Catch it and hoping to cut up its wings
But that ain't gon' happen
Joy, when was the last time we had it?
I don't remember 'cause all that we do
Is go backwards but that's what you get
When you live in the past
And I know we breathing but we not alive
Really, is this the way we wanna die?
'Til you got everything bottled inside
If only they knew what goes on in our minds
I know what you thinking so don't try to hide
Why do you look at me like you surprised?
If you really mean what you write in these lines
Why don't you fix it? 'Cause I'm getting tired
Yeah, I can no longer do this
Ever since you fell in love with the music
See, you find a way to express what you feel
But the moment that you get away from the mic
You don't know what you doing
Is it clear to you yet?
I don't know what's going on in your head
But eventually, you'll have to deal with the things
That you talk about yeah, but I guess until then, we're lost

Lost, lost in the moment
Lost in the moment, lost in the moment
And get lost, lost in the moment
Lost in the moment, lost in the moment

Yeah, oh oh oh, yeah, oh lost
Oh, yeah, oh, no no
This may be the last sunset I'll see
I'll take it in, I'll take it in
This may be the last day that I'll breathe
I'll breathe it in, I'll breathe it in

After this song I checked out all of his other music I love all of his albums, they are masterpieces, he said the stuff that I couldn't say. He is such an inspiration, after two days I knew all of his songst from mansion to perception. I downloaded some of his music and went for a walk. After a few minutes I decided to call Lio..

●Cora's phone call●
Lio - Cora

Hay, how are you ?
I'm good, what about you and what happend to your parents?

I told Leo evrything..well not everything there was somthing that I couldn't talk about...but I will tell him eventually...maybe