Cruel Destiny

Chapter 4

Natasha POV

We reached and I was about to open the door but he stopped me and said "Let me do it"

I gave him a shy smile and nodded my head. He smiled back and opened his side door and got out of the car.

He came toward my side and opened it. He forwarded his hand toward me and I held it and got out of the car.

It was a nice gesture. I heard from Kelly that only a gentleman does that on the date.

He held my hand and led me toward the diner. I can still feel the tingles on my hand when he held my hand.

He opened the door for me and gestured to me to walk first. I walked inside first then he came.

We sat on our chairs and ordered our food. He was staring at me continuously but I didn't meet the gaze.

His staring was making me nervous and making me feel something different.

"So let's play 20 questions. This way we can learn something about each other." He said suddenly snapping me out of my thoughts.

I looked at him and said softly "of course."

"Your favorite color," he asked me while staring at me.

"Black and yours," I said

"Mine is black too," he chuckled.

We played this game until our food arrived. I slowly started to eat it.

"Do you live with your parents?" He asked me curiously

I stopped eating and looked at his face. I bit my lips and saw that his gaze was now on my lips

"I am an orphan. I don't have anyone." I told him sadly

He held my hand and said "I am sorry. I didn't know about it. But I can understand that. I am an orphan too"

I looked up and saw his sad face. I felt something different in my heart. I squeezed his hand softly.

He looked at me with sad eyes and I said: "I am sorry too."

I know the feeling of being an orphan. It's very hard to live in this cruel world without any support.

There was a time when I missed having someone with me. Like when I got sick, that time I wanted my mother to take care of me.

Or when someone tried to molest me, that time I wanted my dad to protect me as all dads protect their daughters.

Or the time when I got my first period in my class. I thought I was having some type of disease that would kill me.

I still want them with me but now I think they would be busy with their own children.

God bless their children and them a good life. What if I didn't get their love. 

It was in my destiny to not be loved by them. They should not get into any trouble because of me.

"Natasha are you alright." Liam's voice brought me back from my thoughts 

"I am fine," I told him with a smile

He sighed and said "are you getting bored? Did I do something wrong?"

I looked at him with a shocked expression. Bored? How could he think like that?

Why would I get bored with him?. It might be the opposite? I am a boring person and I don't know how to talk.

"No. I am sorry it's just that I had never done this. I have never dated someone. Hell, you are the first man whom I have ever talked to. So I don't know what to do on this date. I hope you can understand." I finally told him what was on my mind.