tales of mona

vi.

she thought she was the reason her husband left her.

she was devastated.

she was miserable.

she tried to be a better mother.

but she couldn't .

Not when Mona looks exactly like her husband,

Not when Mona reminds her of everything she threw away,

she didn't know where to start from.

she left it that way.

how wrong she was.....

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Mona laughed at a girl in the parked who can't wait to be sixteen ,

she laughed because there was nothing sweet about being sixteen.

she felt angry, sad and empty,

she wondered if she would feel like this forever.

she would always question her birth.

how she wished she wasn't born.

she had no reason to live.

then again she doesn't get what she wants.

if there was one thing she learnt from being sixteen ;

expect the worse from people,

they'll always let you down.

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she hated it.

she hated it when neighbors looked at her with pity.

she wore a façade,

it was easier to make people believe in her lies....

she had a friend.

she named him neon.

they would count stars together and they would talk about her,

the nightmare she had.

how she could not get over what happened two years ago.

she walked into the park with her polaroid in her hands.

it was just her and nature looking at the children running with wide smiles plastered on their faces.

she prayed they get a better life than her.

she admired a girl.

a girl with a frizzy hair and worn out shoes.

she admired Zoey .

Zoey was oblivious to the weird looks thrown at her.

Zoey didn't care how big her jeans were.

all she cared about was the sun and how it on her face making her freckles a bit visible.

all she focused on was the breeze and how the trees danced lazily,

she liked it ,

Mona loved the way Zoey laughed.

she found a friend.

Zoey made her smile genuinely and it mattered for Mona.

she made her better,

she stopped talking to neon,

she stopped talking to her imaginary friend.

even when she looked at the stars.

she stopped talking to her imagination.

thanks to Zoey.

Zoey made her strive.

Zoey made her to be grateful.

she made Mona grateful that she was alive and breathing.

she made Mona overlook that night.

Mona made an effort.

all because of Zoey she felt she had a chance at life....