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i been so stressed out since jay died jakia taking it so hard she hasn't been out of her room since he died i don't even know if she gone come to the funeral tomorrow she won't let me in the room or nothing
it's like when he died she died to i could kinda understand since it was her twin but she acting like she's the only one hurting right now
i thought as i sat on the couch playing with my fingers i wanted to cry but somebody had to be strong and obviously it wasn't gone be jakia
i heard somebody coming downstairs looking seeing it was jakia she looking so out of it she just looked rough
"jakia" i said she didn't reply
"JAKIA" i yelled
"WHAT JANAE DAMN" she yelled crying all over again
"you coming to the funeral tomorrow" i asked
she nodded going back upstairs
i rolled my eyes going back in my room seeing i had a text from kaceion
𝗸𝗮𝗰𝗲𝗶𝗼𝗻 🖤
you good ?
yea thanks for checking in
yeah im outside with you some food cause ik yeen ate
lol im coming now 😂
ight
he could be nice when he wanted to it's crazy how he knew i hadn't eaten though
i put on my slides going outside to his car seeing he had me some subway
"how you knew this was my favorite" i asked him biting into my sandwich
"i asked diyah" he said
i rolled my ass thinking he was bout to say some cute shit like he just know me like det
"talk to me i know you said you good but youn look good" he said looking at me stank
"bitchhh" i said looking back at him
he wasn't lying though i had bags under my eyes from not getting sleep it was time for me to take my hair down i had on big ass clothes i just looked a mess
"ion know it's like im stuck in a bad dream i just can't wake up from you know it still don't feel real ion know how i wanna feel right now it's hard to explain" i said biting into my sandwich
"um yea you almost done so we go inside" he said as i took another bite out of my sandwich dropping some lettuce
"uhn uhn see we gotta go in the house now get that shit off my seat too" he said
"i knew yo ass couldn't be nice for to long" i said getting the lettuce up getting out of his car going in the house with him behind me
i threw my trash away then we went to my room
"come on nie so we can take these braids out" he said
"ok damn" i said going to get the scissors
i went back to the room and sat down on the floor between ace legs
"im going live" i said
"uhn uhn all my hoes gone be at my head" he said
"good cause you shouldn't be playing with them like that" i said starting the live
"wassup y'all" i said looking at the live as i cut the braids shorter
it was a lot of people saying sorry for my lost and ian like that cause i been tryna keep my mind off of it so i got off and finished taking by hair down with ace ______ |next day|
i was now done getting ready for the funeral a lot of supposed to be family was here but didn't ever fuck with us when we was all alive and good
crazy how people come out when somebody die
everybody was in the living room i didn't ha e nothing say to them so the funeral home man prayed and we left out going to the cars that drove us around it was siblings and cousins in the car i was in
then one car had uncles and aunties
we got to the place the funeral would be held at and lined up in the family line the line really was just supposed to be me diyah dre and their mom and jakia
everybody was lined up i was lined up with jakia we was first in line
we walked in and looked in the casket saying our goodbyes and stuff then went and sat down
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we was at this building eating it was nobody but family here we was all at this long table
i was ready to go but diyah moms convinced me to stay
I was sitting by diyah and jakia
my aunties nem been throwing slick shots whole time i been here
"y'all so small do y'all even eat" my aunt asked
"yes we eat now you'll be mad if i said you a big bitch what do you be eating" i said getting irritated
"janae" my aunt diyah mama said sternly
"man fuck this shit jakia come on" i said leaving out
i hated my family with a passion
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i went home soon as we got their jakia ran back up to her room she hasn't said anything since yesterday when she told me she was coming to the funeral
i went into my room taking a shower so i could get ready to go to work this would be my last night working at this strip club since i had enough money saved up
im a bottle girl at a strip club
plus this isn't what i wanna do i wanna be a nurse or teacher some shit
once i hopped out of the shower i went in my room putting on my outfit for tonight
i told jakia i was gone and left out heading to the club
i pulled up to the club going inside headed to the bar for a drink then i got into my shift
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this was way shorter than any other and lame but what ever 😞
this is also gone be my last update for a while cause y'all being ghost readers and ion like det 🤚🏽
