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CHAPTER 2

I reflect on a lot of things.

I reflect on what i did a week ago, 3 days ago, an hour ago.

Its not that i want to. Its that my mind wanders as often as my eyes do. And when i fix on a certain memory it connects itself to another. And creates a gossamer thread which leads to a million other connections that i didnt know i wished to remember. And one of the million threads create another few thousand threads.
And so on until ur slapped back to reality by present problems.

The mind truly does work in funny ways.

But on most days i seem to reflect on snippets of my experiences during college.

Out of all the hopelessly stochastic happenings in my life i suppose the ones i had in college were the most eventful.

Back then i lived by a principle.

To live without harming anyone or anything. To live quietly. To live as no one.

A principle which i now deem as completely and cynically inane.

If theres anything ive learned in my 31 years of existence, its that you cant live without hurting people.
No u cant even survive without hurting people.
To live is to experience. To live is to create. To live is to die.

To live is to inflict pain almost as much as u experience it.

"Live quietly"? There is no silence in even the syncopated breaths we take.

Its just as moronic to live as no one.

You become someone the moment youre born. You become a son, a daughter,a sister a brother. If ur lucky to live longer you become a student, a friend, an employee, a father, a mother.

If ur even luckier you get a chance to grow old. And welcome death knowingly before it beats you to it.

I was young.

When youre young you think you need rock solid principles.
But even principles become dynamic with age.

I was in a conflict with myself when i started my 21st year. But if i were to explain this id have to start way back.

Back when i was 17 and i first encountered Laili.