when i finally reach my drive way i visibly exhale. i was exhausted, and i've been waiting to leave work. one of my co-workers didn't show up for their shift so i had to cover. it was the same thing all the time.
life felt so repetitive. i woke up at six eve dry morning and had eggs for breakfast. then i showered, dressed, and headed to work. i worked all day, i had nothing else to do.
now as i threw down my keys and laid against the couch i felt a deep loneliness. i took out my phone opening instagram, texting a few friends desperately hoping for a response.
i was scrolling through all of my archived posts. i hadn't deleted my old pictures, i simply archived them. i came across a picture from years ago. i actually remember what happened that night.
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tomorrow would be the fifteenth year mark, i've known her for that long. she left though, and she's not gonna come back anytime soon. i've accepted it.
most days i missed her. just her soft hands and her sweet scent. i just wanted one last hug, i was loosing it and all i needed was for her to tell me it'd be okay.
she was so good at reassuring me, she made me feel so safe.
it's been years, i should've been over her. but i wasn't. she was my first and only love. she had promised me she would come back, that i'd see her again.
it hadn't happened yet.
i was so tired. i couldn't keep my eyes open any longer. so as i closed my eyes i thought. i thought of her like i did all the time.
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𝗢𝗟𝗜𝗩𝗜𝗔𝗦 𝗡𝗢𝗧𝗘𝗦 so bored and no motivation but i have so many plots in my head 😔
