I am lying down in bed, awake at 3:30 am. Insomnia hits me hard but not harder than the memories. Sometimes I think that it’s not insomnia but its memories of you that kept me awake.
I thought I could have written you a letter like Augustus wrote to the Hazel. Even though he is gone, that letter keeps reminding her of the love that has touched her life. And no matter how many times I read it, it always makes me closer to you.
Dear Augustus Waters and Hazel Grace Lancaster you were one of the five people we meet in heaven. Augustus, you wanted to be remembered by many and you feared oblivion. But, Hazel has a totally different perspective. And I am agreeing with her perspective. It is almost impossible to touch every person in the world even not half of them. I don’t want to put a dent in the universe; I wanted to make a small space in your heart. Hazel teaches me that, it’s okay to be loved deeply instead of widely.
Augustus, I love the way you enjoy metaphors. When you put that cigarette between your lips and you’re this kind of behavior goes on Hazel’s nerves. “You put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don’t give it the power to do its killing.” This sentence of yours saying me like, I should have to use metaphors in life. Metaphors helped me to make sense of something that I haven’t feel.
Hazel and Augustus both put my life on a different path at the time I got separated from her in my life. Most I hardly remember and don’t know how they changed my life. But you were the one I do.
I wish I had met you both and talk with you about the similar problems those we all faced and I am still facing.
All endings are not happy. Everyone loves to believe in happy endings. That’s how we were raised, isn’t it? The fault in our stars shows that not all endings are happy and that not all wishes come true. Apparently, the world is not a wish-granting factory. Everything may not turn out as how I want it to be, I can enjoy the ride and make the most of it. I am on a roller coaster and I should aim for it to only go up.
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I WISH I HAD MET YOU
Historical Fiction'I Wish I Had Met You' is a short story collection that includes various fictional stories about meeting the persons from the history or an imaginary world. I hope you guys like it.
