Secrets (On Hold)

Chapter 11~Asshole, Space

  Please read the Author's note at the end! Thanks :)

Harry's P.O.V.

  Shit, I really messed up. I shouldn't have kissed that slut, to be honest I don't even remember her name..Julie? It even wasn't my fault -that I kissed her- She was the one that came up to me and just started kissing me and I just did the only thing I know what to do, I played along. Well now I see where that got me, I should've just pushed her away. If I knew Alex was going to see, Julie is definitly not worth it. I know that I have some type of feelings for Alex, It's just that I don't know how to show it.

  I know that I'm a player so I'm a bit confuse, what if I only want her sexually? I don't want to hurt her cause god knows she'll hurt me back but so much worse. Alex is definitly not the type of girl you want to get pissed of or hurt her feelings. That's one of the things that I like about her, she's not afraid to get a bit dirty, while the other girls cry if they break their nails.

    I ruined any type of chance I had to get her to see that I like her and it was all because of a stupid fight. It wasn't just my fault, it was also Mason's for fucking provoking me. Now I have to fix this damn mess. But how?

"Styles!" Niall yells.

"Hey man."I nod.

"So, I heard you and Mason got in a fight...and Alex was there."He says."Is that true?"

"Yea we got a stupid fight but why does it matter if Alex was there?"I ask.

"Because I heard that you pissed her off and it was your fault she punched some random dude."He says."Well, she also punched him because he was hitting on her."

She would be the one to punch a guy for hitting on her.

"And how was it my fault that she punched a guy?"

"Dude, everyone knows that when she's pissed she can be very...agressive."Niall says.

"You're point being...?''

"What the hell did you do to get her upset?"

"Nothing."I lie.

"Stop lying you asshole, spill it."He demands. I swear, he's such a protective best friend. It's none of his fucking buissness to know why Alex was pissed.

"She got pissed because Mason and I fought...and because she saw me kissing Julie...or whatever her name is, she's just a slut."

"Well just don't mess around with her feelings, if you break her heart I'll break your face."

"What, not the face!"I fake gasp."That's my most important feature."

"I'm serious, Styles. Don't fuck it up."He chuckles and leaves. Now, how to get Alex to talk to me?

    Why am I even planning anything at all? I should just go up to her and tell her straight up, what actually happen and maybe I should even...apologize? I usually don't say sorry for anything I do so this might be a bit challenging. This better work.

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  I can do this, I can do this. All I have to do is knock and ask for Alex...simple, right? I take in a deep breath before knocking.

"Harry!" Alex's  mum smile."Come on in, are you here to see Justin or Alex?"

"Alex."I smile politely.

"Oh ok, well she's up in her room. You can just go right upstair and knock at her door."

"Okay, thanks."I say before heading upstairs. I knock on Alex' door as soon as I see her door.