NDKS 2 : Ruined

Episode 35.1 - I Can't

V's POV

"Nice" I say as I hold out a fist to her.

"Right back at ya." She replies and we share a fist bump.

Did you eat your lunch?

Did you sleep well?

You look pale.

Are you alright?

...

I miss you.

In the brief moment that our fists bumped, those were the things I wanted to say to her.

Instead, I just swallowed them up and walked away.

Remember, you broke up.

Wag kang magpadala sa emosyon mo, V.

Just don't look back and don't think too much.

Yeah, easier said than done.

I walked towards my manager.

"Good job. You did great today, sir." He said as he gave me some refreshments.

"Thank you." I reply.

I give a nod and take the bottle from him.

As soon as I did, I wondered if she wanted some too and before I knew it, I glanced towards her direction.

I winced as I realised what I just did.

What the heck is wrong with you?

Simpleng iwas ng tingin lang, di mo pa nagawa.

Sinubukan kong pagalitan ang sarili ko pero wala pa rin eh.

I just couldn't look away.

Myrah was still standing in the same spot.

She was staring at the set with the saddest look in her eyes.

She looked so distant.

And just seeing her like that made my heart ache.

I wanted to hug her.

And for a while there I thought she was sad that I didn't talk to her more... but that didn't last long.

After all, I'm probably the last person that's on her mind right now.

She was most likely thinking of him again since this whole project was his idea.

I scoffed bitterly at myself.

Look at me.

Parang kahapon lang sinabi ko na hindi ko siya pakakawalan and that I would fight for her.

But here I am, acknowledging that he might be better for her than me.

I was willing to do anything kahit magmumukha na akong tanga.

But when I saw that picture and how she looked at him after that...

I began to think that maybe fighting for her was just not enough.