Jacob's Eighth Collection (Major Editing)

Chapter 15: Sweeter

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(Althea)

Patuloy sa panginginig ang katawan ni Jacob, at para akong tanggang ngayong patuloy sa pag iyak. Anong nangyayare?! Anong gagawin ko?!

"Jacob! Jacob! Please wake up! Jacob!" Hinawakan ko na ang magkabilang balikat nya, at saka sya sinubukang gisingin, pero tangging ungol lang ang isinasagot nya.

"Jacob, gu-mising ka na naman oh. Kausapin mo ko." Pagsusumamo ko kahit walang kasiguraduhang maririnig nya ako. Kung pwede ko lang sana syang dalhin sa ospital eh, kaso hindi. Kabilin bilinan ni Michael na wag kaming lalabas ng bahay dahil maraming masamang taong nag aabang kay Jacob, at isa pa baka raw mapahamak kami at hindi kami maipagtatanggol ni Jacob.

"A-Al-thea..." Napatingin ako sa kanya ang pangalan ko. Lumundag sa tuwa ang puso ko when he opened his eyes.

"Thanks God you're awake!" Sinunggaban ko sya ng yakap, wala na akong pakialam kung mahawa man ako ng lagnat sa kanya, ang mahalaga, gising na sya. He smiled at me. A warm smile, that melts my heart. I kissed him on the lips, but it was just a smack.

"Anong nararamdaman mo may masakit ba sayo? Tell me." I touched his cheek and thank God, bumaba na ang temperature ng katawan nya.

"I'm okay." He reached for my hand and locked it with his, before kissing the back of mine. Shivers started to conquer my body, I bit my lower lip to stop my self from moaning. Simple things that he do, makes me wet down there.

"Don't bite your lip, I'm sick, I can't bang my self inside you." He grinned. I looked at him with confusion.

"Huh?" I asked, but instead of answering, he put my hand on his thing. Shit. That was hard. Very hard. Pilit kong binabawi ang kamay ko, but he didn't let me. Pinamulahan ako ng mukha, how can he be this pervert when the fact is, he is sick?

"See your effect on me? Don't do that again, baka kahit may sakit ako, hindi ko mapigilan." He looked at me straight in the eyes, I looked away, I can't pay back his intensity. Hinila nya ako pahiga sa kama, sa tabi nya. Hindi na ako naka angal pa ng ihilig nya ang ulo ko sa matipuno nyang dibdib at iyakap ang kamay nya sa bewang ko.

Warm. This feeling inside his arms. It feels like I'm safe forever.

"Sleep." He commanded. He started to caress my hair. It's as if, I am a baby in the arms of her mother. It's as if I am being love unconditionally. It's as if he'll never let me go. It's as if him and I against the world. It's as if he love me, when the fact is, I am the one loving him but he can't love me back. It's as if I am a beggar begging for his love.

Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko, memorizing this moment, like I'm a student reviewing her lesson. I am so lucky that once in my life, I saw and experienced this feeling. The feeling of being inside the caring arms of a Jacob Maniago. This is a once in a life time moment. Maaring hindi na ito maulit pa, kaya habang may pagkakataon pa, eeenjoy ko muna  kahit pa bukas sa susunod na mga araw, buwan o taon pagsawaan nya ko.

I drifted to sleep feeling that moment, the moment when it felts like I'm the luckiest girl alive.

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"No Jacob! Please! Don-- don't leave me. No-" Jacob just stare at me with disgust.

"Stop it Althea! I don't fucking love you. Sandra is the girl for me and you must accept the damn fact that you will never ever be her!" Those words torn my heart into pieces. It's like a broken glass, kahit anong pulot ko ako at ako lang din ang masasaktan.