Chapter 25 This Is It.

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by Redrisa10

by Redrisa10

=-=-=-=--= Mac's POV -=-=-=-=-=-=

It's been a week since the whole Liam cheated on me at the bar shit. I been staying with Alex since then. I haven't really left his house. I was sick to my stomach. I was tired. My eyes red and puffy. I haven't posted videos. I haven't tweeted. I haven't moved. I was a mess. And it's bad. I'm a bad mess. I feel bad for Alex. He's trying to take care of me. Forcing me to eat and trying to get me to sleep. But it's not gonna work. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I feel empty now. Liam broke my heart. And i can't fix it. Mike and everyone has no idea where I am. Alex wouldn't tell him and I'm not talking to anyone. It's rare I even talk to alex. He gave me some clothes to use while I'm with him. He is my best friend. And him and Maddie got in a fight because of me.. she doesn't like me. But I cant do anything. Nor do I care. Bitch. I'm sitting in alex's bedroom by the window looking at the cars past by since he lives in an apartment in the city. I see Bayani? I duck my head so he doesn't see me. I peek back out and Bayani is waving at me. I sigh and just look at him. Then I see Alex running across the shreet to him. Alex doesn't look back at me but he knows I'm watching.

Alex left with Bayani for a few hours. And whole he did.. I cried. I cried ever since he left. Which been two hours. At this point I had enough. I walked to the bathroom and found what he token from me years ago. In perfect shape. My first razor. "I can't live like this." I said to myself. I made the first cut in my arm. "Being broken." I whispered. Made another one "being weak." Made another "not being good enough for him" made another. "Having sex with him.." then I made another and another and another. I sat on the ground and cried letting the blood leave my body. This is it... I blacked out.

I woke up in a white room with beeping noises. My arm hurt and the bight light hurt my eyes. I moaned and looked around slowly. When my eyes finally open I see a doctor. Alex, Mike, Kalila, and Liam... I look around confused. "Good morning Miss." The doctor said smiling. I smiled back. Everyone else was sleeping other then Liam. I looked at him and frowned. He didn't even move. He just stared at me. "Well you had quiet a spill Ma'am." The doctor said breaking my thoughts. "It's been a week since this happen. Your very lucky this man found you when he did." He said pointing to Liam. I looked back at liam and started to tear up. "I'll be back shortly" the doctor said as he walked out.

"Why" I said in a whisper. My mouth was so dry from not drinking or talking. "Here Mac have some water." Liam said getting up. I would have said no if I didn't need it. He helped me drink the water and I asked again. "Why." "Mac...."

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I wrote this in my math class. Get at me. Weell I'm sorry I haven't updated in a month! !! I need motivation to write or it turns out crappy. So yeah. It takes me a while to gain some motivation. Sorry everyone. Also I get really depressed and bad anxiety. So yeah that's a factor of it. I'm sorry. I love you all I promise once a week I WILL update. I will try my very best! I love you all thanks for reading and sticking with me <33 have a good day. I'm sorry I haven't updated! <3 AND SORRY THIS IS A SAD WAY TO COME BCK BUT IT HAD TO BE DONE.