Finding Our Wings {Complete}

27- The DM

"No Rakim."

"Why not."

"I just don't feel like it." I said with annoyance in my voice

"Awww, you just need a good hug." He said squeezing me 

"You know I'm gonna go take a shower and change." I said getting up

"It's only 8 though." 

"I know I'm just tired."

"Ok then."

I got my clothes and headed into the bathroom. It took everything in me to not cry as I showered. It's like what we had meant nothing to him. Was this just a sick game to him or something. I got done showering and I put on my lotion and changed into some sweatpants shorts and a cropped nike shirt. I headed to the very front of the bus where the driver was driving and Clancy was in the passenger seat.

"Hey guys." I said sitting on the floor in between the two seats

"Hey Clementine, what's going on?" Clancy asked

"A lot."

"You wanna talk about it?"

"Well I'm not gonna tell you the reason why I'm upset but I'll just tell you how I feel."

"Cool with me."

"It's like whatever type of love we had for each other just vanished in one night. Like I don't know if the love we had was real or not and I don't wanna say anything cause I don't want to be known as the girl who always causes drama, I can keep pretending I have love for this guy but I'm not doing a good job."

"Whatever is going on I think you should tell him or not. Fuck what people think about you. It's not healthy to keep this stuff to yourself."

"But I already have so much going on, I don't know if this will just add on to the stress I have."

"Just do it, I can almost guarantee you'll feel better."

"Are you sure Clancy?"

"Positive and if it's worse than I'll buy you all the food money can buy ok?"

"You better."

"I promise."

"Thanks." I said hugging him

"Anytime."

I left and walked back over to the bedroom.

"Listen Rakim."

"What's going on."

"Don't be mad I'm sorry- you know no I'm not sorry I didn't do anything. You cheated on me."

"Huh?"

"Justina DM'd me."

"What Justina?"

"Justina Valentine, from wildin out."

"What we never did anything."

"She said you kissed and she pulled away asking you if you had a girlfriend and you said it doesn't matter."

He didn't respond.

"I'm so sorry Clem my intention was never to hurt you I swear-"

"Then you wouldn't have done it."

"I know I really wasn't thinking at that point and time."

I let a few tears drop.

"Please don't cry Clem." 

"Well if you hurt me obviously I'm gonna cry."

"Stop acting like I'm the only one guilty."

"Are you serious; what have I done?"

"I saw you talking to Hit man."

"Hit man holla?" 

"Yes."

"We wasn't even talking like that."

"Y'all were defiantly flirting."

"Wow. You are unbelievable. What happened, you were such a nice and sweet guy, where's the Rocky that would always support me no matter what, who would constantly tell me he loved me, who would always make me feel safe and protected?"

"I still am that guy Clem I promise."

"No you're not. The Rocky I use to know would not do that."

"I don't know what else to tell you, I said I'm sorry, I still love you, and I'm still the same guy you knew."

"We can't continue this Rakim. Mentally this is not good for me. So I think we should stop dating."

"Bet."

I shook my head and went to go find Tyler's room.

"Hey." I said quietly

"Sup Clem."

He patted his bed signaling for me to come lay with him, which I did.

"Well I told Rocky about the DM."

"And..."

"And I broke up with him, and he tried to say I was flirting with hit man holla."

"Well I'm glad you said something."

"Me too."

"Soooo if you're not with Rocky anymore-"

"Tyler! I literally just broke up with him 5 minutes ago."

"Yeeeah, sorry."

"It's fine."