Damn (nick mara)

Now What

"Zariia" nick taps me still trying tu get my attention "what happened" he continued. for some weird i just sat there; it's not that i was ignoring him or that i didn't wanna tell him, words just weren't coming out. "ok you leave me no choice" he says as he picks me up and throws me over his shoulder, it definitely took me away from my bad thoughts; he always does though.

we get to the room and he practically throws me on the bed, i just lay there like i'm stuck or something but i'm just being lazy "ok so now that we aren't in a chlorine infested box, is everything good?" as he stood over me i could hear the concern in his voice
"well sit down first" i pat on empty space next to me "got me feeling like a small ant...imagine how they feel just tiny little-"

"stop getting carried away baby" he laughs "but seriously what's going on?"

"well jahlil is in the hospital, remember how i told you he has a stomach bug, well my mom is telling that they're rushing to the hospital right now because he broke into a fever...it's not going all to well"

"Zariia, why didn't you tell me this at the pool, i would've gotten you out of there sooner so you can get a breather"

"it's all fine i'm just a little scared, it's not supposed to be this bad right now..."

"hey, don't get all sad, come here" he holds out his arms and i crawl right into them.

"we just have to keep our minds on the positive, ok baby?" he says as he kisses me on the top of my head

"yea uhm i think we should go back to the pool"

"stop trying to push off the feelings like you always do" he laughs "just chill and breath for a second"

"ok fine but if Karter calls i have to get up"
i tell him as i grab my phone and firmly grip it

"that's fine, i just want you to relax for a couple seconds" he starts to give me a little massage on my back...i swear this man is too perfect. my phone rings and i jump up, coming out the relaxation state "hello?" i ask as i answer the phone

"we need to go home to mom and dad now, i don't think it's a good idea for us apart plus they need the emotional support" karter says through the phone

"ok just let me pack my stuff back up" im freaking out on the inside right now but i'm really not trying to show. i get up and start going through the draws that i put my clothes away in frantically, i look back at nick for a second and go back to getting my stuff back together
"what happened" he looks at me with concern

"we have to go back home"

"i'm coming with you"

"it's ok baby i'll be fine" i don't mean to push him off but i don't want to be this big weight on him

"biggest lie ever, i'm coming, i need to make sure that you'll be ok through all this"

"ok fine but- fuck" i whisper to myself

"hey, look at me just breathe, ok?, i'm here" i let out a big sigh and he gives me a tight hug
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the drive there was so awkward, nothing felt right, there would be a little joke here and there just to keep our spirits held high but i was hard, not knowing if my brother is ok really bothers me to the point that i can't stop starting at my phone, i'm just waiting for that call, the call that says "he's ok, it was just a scare" i'm really waiting.

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i'm sorry that it took me so damn long to finish this chapter, lots of emotions🙃