Heart's Desire

Chapter Thirty-One

Damian

The shuffling beside me had woken me up this morning. My hands rubbed my eyes gingerly as I sat up, blinking. My tired eyes followed the figure that gracefully sauntered towards the balcony. A broad smile came over my face as I followed her actions. After the bar last night, we had pretty much come home with a limited amount of drinks in our body and merely enjoying each other's company. It made me realise that for once, I didn't have to drink a fish-sized tank of alcohol to enjoy myself out with someone, which was quite surprising. Perhaps Adrianna was good for me rather than bad.

"Isn't it beautiful?" I snapped out of my own thoughts as I glimpsed at her marvelling at the view from the balcony.

"Not as beautiful as you sweetheart." I grinned cheekily as the wind blew, blowing the pretty much sheer white curtains over her and she laughed turning towards me as I was taking a video of her. Adrianna didn't shy away from the camera and instead danced in her underwear, with the simple piece of my shirt covering her. I followed her as did the camera for our little movie on her and I couldn't help but, smile again. She had probably made me smile on this trip more than I had ever smiled in my whole entire life

"Come dance with me." She pulled at my hand and I dropped the phone as we danced together, laughing in the process. It was freeing from the normal constraints of how I had to act around people. She was freeing, she made me feel so normal. She made me feel like a person. So, answer me this why did I still have my doubts? "Damian?"

I blinked a few times, being drawn out of my thoughts, "yes?"

"You zoned out again." Adrianna furrowed her brows, "Something on your mind?"

I shook my head instantaneously, "Not at all." Her brows shot up at my quick reply. Dumbass, why did you reply so quickly? Now she's suspicious and she's going to question you Damian and you know this.

"You answered too quickly." She grabbed me by my face, pulling it towards her and paused, searching my eyes for an emotion that would give away what I was feeling like.

"You won't find anything."

"Not even your love for me?" I rapidly blinked a few times, alarmed internally at this more than simple closed question. I clenched my jaw slightly, hoping she hadn't noticed the sudden action I tried desperately to come up with an answer, anything, something that was valid and wouldn't upset her nor would it give away anything because ultimately I had no idea how she felt about me. "I'm joking Damian!" She laughed but, to me it didn't seem convincing. I raised a brow at her, "I know you don't know what love is." Adrianna spoke teasingly. My expression dropped hearing this. "Oh no, I didn't mean it like that." I removed her hands from my face and stepped back from her.

"It doesn't matter." My demeanour changed, did she really think that about me? I thought she, out of everyone, would have even noticed the slightest change of my behaviour towards her.

"Damian." She grabbed my wrist as I turned.

I turned around swiftly, malice held behind my words, "What?" She really thought that about me. God, I was stupid. She was like every other girl and every other girl was like her. She didn't have any substance and she must just want me for my money like every other girl. Hell, she probably wasn't even my soulmate.

"I didn't mean it like that. I know you don't know what love is but, neither do I. We're two broken people with two shitty representations of love. We don't know what true love is but, I know something deep inside you wants to know what it is and what it means to be in love and to be loved." I gulped, did she know? Was she alluding that she knew about us? "I didn't mean to upset you."

I detached her hand from my wrist and cocked my head the side, "When did you start to analyse me?"

"The day you run me over."

I grinned at the memory, "We didn't run you over."

"You practically destroyed my bike!" She smacked me on my bare chest making me laugh loudly.

"I enjoyed every single moment of it."

"Of course you did asshole!" Adrianna rolled her eyes and turned away from, her whipping behind her. 

"Surely you can't still be mad at that sweetheart, I thought I bought you a new one?"

"Okay and?" She sassed me and I let out a chuckle hearing this.

"And you can't be mad at me, it's not justified."

"But that bike-" She threw her arms into the air and gave me a look.

"Was the same exact type and model sweetheart." I raised a brow and crossed my arms over my chest. Adrianna gave me a cheeky yet, sheepish smile as I rolled my eyes at her, "Exactly what I thought."

"Don't you get tired of being right?" Adrianna settled herself on the bed once again, I guess today was going to be a lazy day.

"Since when was I always right, I thought you were always right?" I sat next to her on the bed, pulling her in between my legs so her head lay on my chest and she was able to play with my hands.

"Well of course I am dumbo."

"Oh, name-calling? This is new."

"Okay and who asked?" I saw her grin as I rolled my eyes with a grin also. 

"I don't get tired of being right unless it's in a bad situation, no one likes to be in those 'I told you so' situations trust me."

"Oh?" She sounded curious as she shifted in between my legs, "And when have those situations occured?"

"They've occurred mostly with my friends, it's hard seeing the only people you actually consider to be family to deteriote in such situations. they're the worst and have the worst effect on people and it may lead to the worst things."

"Like Luke's suicide?"

I sat up alarmed, "Who told you that?"

"Luke told me that."

"Why?" I asked curiously, shocked that Luke would tell people such a thing-I mean it wasn't something to be ashamed of but, I was just utterly confused as to why he would tell her out of all people. Did he trust her that much? He seemed to put faith in her if he trusted her that much because I didn't even know if I trusted her that much. Perhaps this was a sign from higher powers that I should trust her.

"I wasn't in a good place and he was trying to make me feel better."

"When was this?"

"Why? Are you jealous?"

I shook my head, "Far from it sweetheart, just mad at myself that I wasn't there for you."

She smiled at my softly, "It's fine, you're here now and that's what matters the most to me." And I'm here for as long as you need me.

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this is by far the shortest and worst chapter I've written. I've been swamped with work and just finished a draft personal statement where I waffled.

This chapter is dedicated to @Goldinas for their amazing support and I also love your icon picture too!

All the love, 

      Sadia