YIKES ーchanglix

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[Seo Changbin]

Direct Messages | @cherrymin

cherrymin
> hey.. I hope now is not a bad time?

its.seodark
Go on <

cherrymin
> Felix is with me

its.seodark
How is he? <
Please take care of him.. Ah, I'm sure
you are already <

cherrymin
> His post freaked me out so I'm
making him stay with me for now

> hey

its.seodark
Yeah <

cherrymin
> I'm sorry I haven't given you a
chance to explain anything

its.seodark
..... <

cherrymin
> it didn't seem like you were just
messing around
> so... Is there a reason you push
Felix away now..?
> it's good to face it rather than avoid it

its.seodark
There is.. <

cherrymin
> I'm not going to force you to tell me but
> what you say will be safe with me.

its.seodark
Hyunjin knows <
Minho knows <
But they've proven that they don't understand <

cherrymin
> what do they know?

its.seodark
That I'm Seo Changbin. <

cherrymin
> ..... SpearB. So you're SpearB, huh
> it does makes sense

its.seodark
What does? <

cherrymin
> CB97 is always around
> Hyunjin called @hannnie 'Jisung'
> you commented on Felix's post from the official account
> you know what? Your comment made him get down so thank you for that

its.seodark
It's funny <
I'm the reason he went up there <
Yet I'm the reason he came back down <

cherrymin
> are you not prepared

its.seodark
More than 'not prepared' <
I've gone too far <

cherrymin
> can you try?
> why are you not prepared?

its.seodark
Because he loves this person he thinks
I am, so dearly, so genuinely <

It's painful to think he does not know
who exactly I am <

I just so happen to be his favourite idol <
And I wish I wasn't <
How would Felix react? <

He could end up hating me, because I've
lied to him about myself, I've kept it
hidden, I've deceived him <

I don't see how it would end well after
we've come this far  <

cherrymin
> you've lied to him about yourself
> but your feelings are true, right?

its.seodark
The feelings I never intended to catch?
They've always been true <

But who cares about me? <

I just wish I could free him, let him forget
this, move on, live his life like he used to
before I decided to intrude <

cherrymin
> I don't think Felix would trade
meeting you for anything at all

> and at this point, he's ready to
accept you regardless of who you are.

its.seodark
You know <
I wish I was the one he loves <

cherrymin
> you are, only that there's just one
thing we need to fix
> Felix deserves to know who you are
> but you should be the one to let him know
Seen

> it doesn't have to happen right away
> and you don't have to do it all by yourself

its.seodark
You're right <
I'm sorry about everything <

cherrymin
> No, not to me
> sure we all got pretty upset and stuff but
> you should be apologizing to Felix, and to yourself.

its.seodark
Thank you for this. <

cherrymin
> no problem.
Seen