Arrange Marriage with My Playboy EX

Chapter 11

I always believe that i am strong. That i am capable of controlling and disciplining myself. I always remind myself that i shouldn't be swayed easily. But seeing this man now infront of me made me lose all of my beliefs. The truth is, i hate handsome or any goodlooking people. Why? Because they are aware that they are goodlooking. They know their effects on someone. They use their charms and they take advantage to make someone bow their head and to make use of them. That's the reality. Looks can be deceiving. It will not bring any good to you once you let yourself be fooled just by looking at the physical appearance of someone.

I hate this man. I hate how he affects me and how he manage to change my beliefs instantly. I know in myself that i am not easily tempted and fooled by physical appearances. I am not usually easily attracted with beautiful faces but then right now, all of those beliefs vanished. It woke me up. He woke me up. He is a proof that yes, i am attracted. I am affected. And i hate it. Because that's not how i know myself. I hate him for making me confused and i hate him for making me doubt of how i really know myself.

"I assume kasya sayo ito?"

Sambit niya habang pinakita sa akin ang isang tshirt. Panlalaki sya at kung ipapasuot sa akin ay hindi magmumukang tshirt. Magmumuka itong dress. But its okay. I am okay with wearing that kind of clothes it's just that i am with a man that i dont even know personally. I am here with this man in an unexplainable place. Basta ang alam ko ay nasa school parin naman kami. Sinama niya ko dahil basang basa na ako at nilalamig nadin. I'm not aware that there's a place like this in our university. It was like a hotel. A condo unit something or what. The place is not that big but not that small either. It was a standard size but it looks spacious because the room was neat and clean.
The furnitures is on their perfect places and the other things are well organized.

"Y-yeah."

I answered nervously.
He laughed when he noticed how nervous i am.

"I-im cold. That's why."

I added to make myself clear. Napansin ko kasing nagiba ang itsura niya at parang may naisip siya sa utak niya. Na bakit ako nauutal at kinakabahan? Siguro naattract ako sa kanya? Na baka gusto ko siya? Hell no. Syempre mali ang iniisip niya kaya naman nilinaw ko na. Nilalamig ako at yun ang nagpapanginig sakin. Hindi siya.

Hindi nga ba talaga siya alexa? God!

He just nodded. And his mouth rose a bit and a small smile appeared on it. It was like he is teasing me by trying to make himself believe what i have said even though he really doesn't believe it. Arrrrgggh.

Tinitigan ko lang siya ng nakakunot ang kilay. I am very irritated at him right now. Really.

"what are you waiting for? Go change."

Sambit niya habang tinagilid ang ulo para ituro ako sa lugar kung saan ako dapat na magpalit. Tinitigan ko muna muli siya bago ako umalis para magpalit.

"So what's your name young lady?"

He asked cooly while pouring hot chocolate into my glass. I am here infront of him scared to say anything. I am looking down at the hot chocolate while he's ruthlessly staring at me. I don't even think that he's scared if i notice how he's intently looking at me. At mas ayoko lalong magangat ng tingin dahil doon. I will not dare to even look at him because i can't feel anything right now but to be embarrassed.

After changing my clothes we talked a bit. Nalaman ko na nagcancel pala ng pasok dahil may bagyo daw. Maybe that's the reason kung bakit parang gusto akong pigilan at kausapin ng guard kanina. I asked him too kung bakit nandito siya sa school kung alam naman pala niyang walang pasok but then i recieved shrugged only as an answer.

"I-i have a question."

"Hmm?"

"Anong ginagawa mo kanina? Why are you throwing ice cube?"

He just chucked at my question. He sipped a bit of hot chocolate first before he turned his eyes to me.
Nabigla naman ako sa ginawa niyang pagtingin sakin kaya nataranta ako at nagalaw ko ang baso. Dahil sa ginawa ko natapunan ng hot chocolate ang kamay ko at napaso ako.

Ang sakit shit! Ang tanga mo naman kasi alexa! Bakit ka ba kasi nagpapaapekto sa lalaking ito? Hays.

I closed my eyes instantly when i felt how the hot chocolate hurts me.

"are you okay?"

He asked worriedly as he tried to reach my hand and search if there's a burn or what. His eyes were too transparent right now that you can really see what he really feels. Magkasalubong na magkasalubong ang kilay niya habang patuloy na pinpunasan ang kamay ko at naghahanap kung may kailangan bang gamutin sa paso o kung ano man. I stared at him as he do that to me. Then i felt like the time stop when our eyes met. Just like in the movie, our movements became so slow that made my heart abnormal even more. I can feel my crazy heart beat once again. I don't believe the butterflies in stomach thing before but right now i don't know how to explain everything that i am feeling. This is all new to me.

Binawi ko kaagad ang kamay ko dahil hindi ko na kaya pang dalhin lahat ng mga nagsasabay na nararamdaman ko. He bit his lower lip when he realized what i did. I intentionally looked at the other side pretending to look at the place but the truth is i am trying to avoid looking at him. I can't contain it anymore. I can't hold my heart anymore. Pinaplano ko ng bumaba mula sa pagkakaupo dito sa counter para makaalis na dahil hindi ko na talaga kaya ng bumukas ang pinto.

We were both stunned when the door opened and maybe because the atmosphere before the door opened was too akward. We both look like a potato trying to look at different place and avoiding each others gaze.
The man who opened the door seems like he noticed the situation before he came so he awkwardly look at us then slowly a smile formed into his lips.
Lumakad siya palapit ng iiling iling at ng tuluyan na siyang nakalapit sa amin ay inakbayan niya ang lalaki sa harap ko at tinapik ang balikat nito.

He looked and smiled at me. I can't smile back because of all the emotions that i am feeling at once. When he noticed that i am kind of intimidated at his gaze, he offered his hands.

"JC by the way"

He smiled once again when i accepted his hand to do shakehand.  Then he looked at the man beside him and smiled teasingly.