Ok, so I'm sure you guys want to know how the concert went last night. He was amazing! I touched him! He did that thing where he reaches down to grab your hand and I was on the runway, HE TOUCHED ME' like OMG. I saw his abs, and his butt was pretty close to me too, LOL he was so good! And he got a letter from me, so I'm praying that all works out.
Anyway, you saw this chapter in Justin's POV, but it was a rough draft of his, and I've changed so much in Lauren's POV it's going to be completely different - the main thing I was upset about was you guys seeing the dream, but if you haven't - that's even better.
So here you go, and enjoy:)
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1 Week Later:
Tuesday,
9:41 PM
"So how'd your interviews go?" I asked curling up against Justin's chest and smiled as he looked down at me.
"They went pretty well actually. I got to talk about Hailee and you. My family."
"What did you say?"
"Just that everything was going really well, Hailee was getting big."
"They didn't ask anything else?"
"Well they sorta did, but it's not something we need to talk about right now."
"Sure it is. Go ahead. Tell me."
"It's sort of a sensitive subject. They asked afterwards - I just don't know if it's something to talk about right now."
"Please?"
He glanced down at me, then took a deep breath, running his hand along my back.
"They asked when we were going to have more kids." He finally said, refusing to look at me as he said the words. "Again."
"Oh." I frowned. "What did you say?"
"That I didn't know."
"Oh."
"But we should talk about it. We haven't really. Not for a while."
"Justin, I don't even know if I can have more kids. We've been over this."
"Yeah you can, it's just tha-"
"Whether I lose the baby right?"
"Lauren, I didn't say that." He said, raising his eyebrow as I scooted off his lap.
"But you were thinking it, and that's pretty much saying it anyway."
"No. Don't get mad at me for that." He sighed, reaching up and took both of my hands.
"I don't know if I could do it. We've discussed this. It might not happen. And then what do I do if I lose the baby? I can't be that 'strong' person I have myself put out to be, but Hailee needs me, except I'd be a mess. I want more kids, I do, I just don't know if I'm ready for the heartbreak again if I lose them."
"But you don't know that will happen sweetheart." He reached up again, the back of his hand running along my cheek.
"I don't know it won't."
"What if we tried? Just tried?"
"I-" I sighed, shaking my head. "I don't know."
"Honey, I understand. I do, but you know you were scared with Hailee and look at her." I looked back up, seeing the pleading look on his face and swallowed. "You have me, and Hailee. We'll make it through, but we'll regret it if we don't try."
