His not so beautiful wife

Why not me?

She looked dumbfounded at him.
He did so because he wanted her to hate him?

"Why I didn't pick your calls? Why I didn't say anything to you when that boyfriend of yours came here every damn day?
Just why till now I haven't even asked you the truth you are dying telling the entire world?"

"I didn't destroy you, Elle, you are destroying yourself!!
With your insecurities, your jealousy !!
You are doing this to yourself!!"

Her eyes widened, realising the meaning of his words.
Was it true?
Was it her fault?

He moved closer to her.
Each word he spoke was opening her eyes.
She was realising how much she trapped herself in this.

"Why is my betrayal hurting you so much? Why do you expect so much from me when I have given you every reason to not trust me?"

He moved over her entrapping her small frame below his large one.
Her eyes fixed on the cut on his cheek as she found her fingers moving closer to it.

His closeness was affecting her.
Her anger was all out only leaving emptiness which his body was filling.

'"I... don't know...I just don't know...I think I....I lov-"

He placed his finger on her lips silencing her next words which he knew quite well.

Placing her fringe behind her ear he looked into those broken ,tired ,clueless and confused eyes.

"You don't love me Elle.....you don't even know what love is. Don't mistake lust by love....this weird thing going on here....."
He said placing his one hand near her abdomen.

"It's lust, not love. "

"To love someone you should first learn to love yourself"

"To love this not so beautiful face of yours .
To love this skinny body of yours"

His thumb moved over her
Lips
"To love these non-stop moving lips of yours"

"The way your eyes are looking at me...the way you are feeling down there is just temporary.
And temporary things never last a lifetime."

She closed her eyes as soon as he said it.

He knows everything.

He knows her body more than she knows herself.

Her body listened to him more than her.

"I can give you pleasure Elle, I can make you feel at the top of the world with nothing to lose..but the very next moment I don't want you to fall down and break.
Now you know my reasons for leaving you in-between so many times....reason for my denial.
I never denied you of it because I considered you less beautiful, I denied it because I don't deserve you."

She never thought that way.
He was opening a new window to her thoughts she never knew existed.

She was realising that not everything is about her.

"Learn to love yourself before you go out finding someone to love you.
The day you learn it, you will find all the happiness you are yourself throwing away"

"No one can enter here Elle."
He said pointing to her temple.

"Only you can and only you have the power to destroy it."

She never thought this way.
He was right.
He was telling her what no one ever taught her.

He placed his hand on her forehead to see the fever was coming down.

She finally let's go....the frustration...the anger...she let's it all go
Tomorrow onwards she will listen to him and try to love herself.

"Does it hurt?"
She asked with concern,tracing the cut.