Excerpts from an old diary

Perfect

You were waiting,
but the time had stopped.
I was praying
but there's no God.
And he said,
you were always there
but she said
that you don't care.
I am in dilemma.
Now, there's just one
who knows it all that we never did,
and she said that
you're too scared.
That you care
And you always cared.
And she said
You're waiting for the perfect,
The perfect moment...