The First Vampire

Chapter 31 - I'm A Failure

Alissa's POV

A nervous feeling was set in my stomach, my body knows what today was. I have to control myself around a human. Last time didn't go well as my animal inside of me wanted to kill everyone in sight. I took a small deep breath, waiting for some news from Xyla. Annie was having a conversation with her at the moment. 

While I waited, I decided to stop being lazy and got out of the bed. I put on a simple blue t-shirt and comfortable leggings. I then walked downstairs for a change. I sat down in the living room and turned on the television. Whoa. Xyla was watching something rather explicit. To be honest, I never expected this kind of sexual behaviour from her. Then, I quickly sat up from the couch that I was sitting on. Okay. That couch has seen better days for sure. 

"I know she is still new to being a vampire for fuck sake, but you can't just keep her inside forever!" I heard Annie argue.

"What if she can't control her feeding from that person? What will you do then?" I heard Xyla ask her, with her voice raised. 

That shut Annie up for a few seconds before she continued to lay down her points about me. "I know my girlfriend. She blamed those deaths on herself even though it wasn't her actual fault! I will keep a very close eye on her. I fucking promise you that." 

"Bein. Va avec elle." I heard Xyla talk in French to her before I heard some footsteps coming down the steps. 

"Come on, babe. Let's go." Annie told me with a smile before I began to follow her out of the house. "Where are we going?" I asked her. 

"That is for me to know." Annie replied before she took my hand, wrapping her hand around it as she teleported us away from the intense area. We were outside a club, full of...delicious humans. 

Annie noticed that I was struggling to control myself, so she took me around the corner and pushed me against the wall of the alleyway. "Control it, babe. You can do this." she said to me in a soft tone. If my heart could beat, it would be pounding rapidly.

I took a deep breath in and out, feeling my animal inside calm herself down. "You brought us to a club? Are you serious?" I asked her in a quiet tone, in case anybody will hear us. 

"Yes, I am. The club is for women only, so we could be ourselves. Not pretending to be in love with disgusting perverted men." she told me. This made me let out a small laugh. It was true though. 

"Some are humans and some are vampires, by the way. So it won't be just full of humans." she assured me before she grabbed my hand and took me inside. The building was rather cool, it must be air conditioned. There wasn't any pop music, only soft music. What was this club?

"Stay here and watch." Annie whispered in my ear, before she started to walk towards the bartender who was a blue short haired female. I watched Annie talk to the bartender for a few minutes, before the bartender left the bar and went into the staff room. Annie gestured me to follow her again. What did she do?

It took me a small while to finally submit and began to follow her into the room where the bartender went in. The bartender was sitting on a simple light brown bench, her eyes looked strange. There was no life to them...

"You compelled her?" I asked Annie. "Yep. She can't feel a thing. Come on." she replied, her hand grabbing the hold of the bartender's wrist. Then, her sharp finger nail slit a small cut on the poor, helpless girl's wrist. The smell of her blood hit my nostrils as I inhaled it. Bite. Bite. Bite. 

I took a deep breath, wanting all of my animal's thoughts to go away. As I inhaled more of her blood, the more saliva came into my mouth. I swallowed my saliva, before I licked my lips at the bartender. "What is her name?" I asked Annie. 

"Sapphire." Sapphire replied. What a incredible, special name. I want to keep her alive. 

Then, I watched Annie kneel down as she placed her mouth against her wrist, biting into her. Oh my god...

I can't do this with her. Something was stopping me. I didn't know why. I was just standing completely still, not making a single movement, I felt like a dog as I started to drool from the corner of my mouth. I wiped the drool with my bare hand, wiping it against my leg. I felt like a idiot. Something was clearly stopping me. 

Annie let out a small deep moan from her throat as she was drinking from Sapphire. Her eyes looked up to see me not doing a single thing. My fangs were out, but I just can't do it. 

A minute later, Annie stopped feeding, pulling her fangs away. "What's wrong?" she asked me. 

"I don't know. It was like something was stopping me but I just can't think of who..." I replied, my voice beginning to crack. 

"Hey, don't cry. It is just your confidence, that's all. You..."

"I am a fucking failure." I cut her off. 

"Babe...you are not a failure. Your confidence just needs to be worked on." she told me. 

"Maybe you just took it too far by feeding in front of me." 

"I shouldn't have done it, but I was hungry." 

I stared at her for a few seconds before I decided to leave the room. My fangs turned into my normal canines as I walked to the bar and ordered myself a glass of simple lemonade. 

"You are not a failure." Xyla spoke in my mind.

"Fuck off. This is between me and Annie." I spoke back. 

"Come back home. I will make you feel better." 

"I will once I finish this lemonade."

"I will be waiting for you, then."