When I tell you my STORY

What A Night

Dahlea POV

10pm a few hours after prom

She broke me again I thought I could trust her where did I go wrong tell me where I went wrong in life why do they hate me I kept my true feelings to myself  so why am I hurting why can I feel my heart being tugged out of my chest why can I feel it being stepped on as it still beats how do I continue to force a smile on my face when I'm not truly happy

I heard banging on the door

I went to go see who it was teary eyed and all I got to the door and it was her

I opened the door standing there looking at her until I finally spoke

"Go away"

"No Dahlea let me in can we talk" Keyora said

"No I have nothing to say to you your suppose to take away my silence not cause it your suppose to heal my pain not bring me more of it why do you do the things you do to me Keyora you say you want to learn how to love and change and be a better person but your not showing me any change your confused Keyora truly you don't know what you want and I'm ok with that I'm ok with you not choosing me yea it might hurt but being alive hurts you can only really choose one side of a person the side that you break or the side that you heal I don't wanna speak to you so go run along it's what your best at anyways"

I started closing the door

"Wait lemme explain Lea wait" she pleaded

I closed the door and she started banging on it

"Lea pleaseee I'm begging you I love you please Lea don't leave me again I need you" she yelled I could tell she was crying but I kept walking

"Leaaaa" she cried

I went upstairs ignoring her calls just like she did to me all those years you know what they say no one ever really changes they just put on a different costume everyday and get better at hiding who they truly are

I went in the bathroom and ran me a bubble bath

"Why me lord I'm human just like everyone else but it seems like out of all the billions of people in this world I hurt the most"

I pulled my knees up to my chest and cried but no tears came out it's finally happening I'm
reaching my last straw my heart officially can't take it anymore I'm mentally and emotionally dying

I just sat there wanting to cry but I literally can't I just need a blunt or something I pulled out my pre rolled blunt and lighter and lit it taking a big pull of it I felt the real type of numb now this is a feeling that I could get used to

I smoked the whole blunt it was barley a roach left that shit was unsmokeable I tossed it in the trash and let my whole body sink underwater

I'm not trying to kms I just...idk I'm just trynna find myself again

I finally came up and I washed up and drained out the water then dried off and threw on my robe so that I can go to sleep

After I ate a snack from my mini fridge I was out

2am

I couldn't sleep so I wanted to go take a walk I threw on some joggers and a tank top a jacket and my slides I opened the door and locked it as I was walking I saw a car it looked familiar I took a closer glance and it was Keyoras car I walked up to it and saw that she was sleep

I knocked on the window and she jumped up pointed a gun in my direction where the hell she get a gun from

She put the gun and unlocked the door so I can get in I noticed that she had on different clothes comfortable sleepwear ones